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The Nuke Button

Posted by VonDign 12/31/09 1 opinions

Yah I've decided to just say fuck it and stop dating JS. Well currently i'm just waiting to see what happens, I ain't talk to her all day. It took me awhile to figure out what to do. I can't help but question my decision. I mean I ain't put words into action yet...

Iunno

on one hand I'm digging her and I'm not sure she's digging me...still!!

Something just doesnt seem all together there. I made her a cd she still hasn't listened to it after a week or so I think. Part of me is sayin yo eff it it's just a week and she has a youngin but the other is screaming WTF are u sayin. If a chick is feeling you she would have listened to that shit the next time she would be able to! Real talk!

Now I'm no Dr Phil but that about women I know! ( i assume he knows about women iunno)

If a chick wanna be wit you Unless you oblivious or something ...you'll know it. especially as opposed to a chick that wants nothing to do with you. Home girl is probably somewhere in the former half of the spectrum how deep in the left she is i got not clu, maybe she just likes the idea of me liking her, you know how women are. Knowing this I figure I'd take the initiative n just cancel our date for tomorrow (or later today) and just move on.

I hate getting got and because I've come to this realization deading the whole thing would make me feel betta about it, in a weird way. Call it a defense mechanism....

press the nuke button...it would be easier if i didnt like her like i do

*breaks the glass the button is encased in*

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Sent from my iPod

The "Do you Think About Me" Video

Posted by VonDign 12/30/09 1 opinions

I wonder...

Then again

People beak apart for a reason.

Someone is in ones past for a reason and although I personally don't believe its fair to keep them there so concretely, It is what it is. I dig this song immensely I don't even watch music videos like that, why? Iunno at a certain point and time they became all the same so I refrained from watchin em.
I just stumbled onto this one and I was cracking up. Say what you will about 50 but his sense of humor is crzy. Apparently his album ain't (isn't) doing too well. Although I feel that he has nothing more to say when it comes to music I feel that he will still find success. He just need to prioritize. Movies will be a good start. I just wish the nigga (more) success...that's all...

(not wholeheartedly i mean its not like he knows i exist so .... half of me is really like fuck the dude but he a character out there and I can't help but react to him existing so why not react)

Ill video Tamala Jones needs to go on the list <--- ohhh wait...i redid the page she gonna be over there ---> ; ^

put them arrows together lol

The New Year and The Old Year

Posted by VonDign 12/29/09 1 opinions

I don't have a new years resolution...nothing sticks out in my head. i just want to advance in age, attitude and prestige.

Ive went back to see if i posted a new years resolution blog last year for 2009. Something interesting i just wanted to see what i wrote.

Blue text indicates that I've fulfilled that resolution in 2009

I wanna work a serious job that i can see myself in for a while. Govt job.
I wanna get into grad school.
I wanna lose at least 20 pounds (to finish the fight)
I wanna make money
I wanna get my license and a whip.
I wanna fuck alot
I wanna have a better understanding of myself and where im going in life
I wanna go to georgia
I wanna learn to play the guitar that i brought months ago
I wanna meet some gottdamn illadelphians
I wanna make a baby...lol im playin.
Hewll no

damn thats not even half!! lol

Im not gonna get on myself.. im probably/hopefully scheduled to live at least 50-60 more years at best so 2010 I'm not expecting anything. Imna be on the lookout for opportunities cause 2009 was a bad year kinda like a waste of a year if I look at it in certain ways; but it was a year in which i existed and in that way it was a good year hopefully in twentyten things will come to fruition.

FUCK!

Posted by VonDign 2 opinions

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuuuuuuck

I cant draw anymore

wtf happened i can't even draw simple ass stewie!!!!!

damn!!!

what do i do what do it dooo!??

One of my drafts

Posted by VonDign 12/28/09 0 opinions

1. Name someone with the same birthday as you.

Kim Kardashian
someone named Rochelle

2. Where was your first kiss?

On the stairs of her apartment across from her door..my first slap came soon thereafter lol

3. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else’s property?

Yeah school desks, walls, trains

4. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?

When i was a kid yeah... sorry.

5. Have you ever sung in front of a large number of people?

nahh never have, never will.

6. What’s the first thing you notice about your preferred sex?

face and tits

7. What really turns you off?

Bad Attitude, prudes, religious freaks, lames, close minded people, pettiness, people who are too concerned about others, ratchet folks, people who feel the need to change me, f*** all of y'all.

8. What do you order at Starbucks?

I don't mess with coffee unless I have to. French Vanilla from Dunkin Donuts is awesome though.

9. What is your biggest mistake?

being a sociology major in undergrad.

10. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?

nahhh came close once.

11. Say something totally random about yourself.

It's possible that I am in a crossroads right now. Who isn't.

12. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?

yeah, ma$e, mostly. biggie when I was fatter, white folks can't tell one black man from another.

13. Do you still watch kiddie movies or TV shows?

no not really

14. Did you have braces?

never have

15. Are you comfortable with your height?

yeah im good with it.

16. What is the most romantic thing someone of the preferred sex has done for you?

This one girl got me a graduation present based on one of my hobbies at the time.

17. When do you know it’s love?

When she is all you think about and you can truly think about the future where you and her exist together. whatever I don't know. You tell me, no seriously.!!.

18. Do you speak any other languages?

Creole, french, spanish 100 level, sarcasm, and apathy

19. Have you ever been to a tanning salon?

Nah no need.

20. Have you ever ridden in a limo?

Yeap...Prom

21. What’s something that really annoys you?
people man. just people, lol for real though, slow drivers, people who talk but don't say nothing, jealous people, predictable pettiness.

22. What’s something you really like?

I like great movies. I like girls I can be myself with.. I like guilt free food that tastes awesome. I like Nike sneakers. I like tablets. I like phones with keyboards on them . I like porn.

23. Can you dance?

Yeah, but will I? Lol

24. Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?

Yes one time in my life. I was about 10 to 12 years old. I think I was dehydrated though. So I wonder how much that ambulance ride cost.

The Twit

Posted by VonDign 12/27/09 2 opinions

IIte so for a trial period I've joined twitter..

Some reasons was everyfucking body is on it and it seems like theres all this new lingo such as #something or RTsumthing and I have no clue what that means so I come to twitter for enlightenment. I also wanted to see what the big deal was. Twitter is def a mobile app cause who can be up in they comp tweeting 45 times an hr. So far its ookaaaayyy ima populate the list with pornstars and celebs and see waht happens lol maybe some real life associates.

oh yeah...

Twitter.com/dondonveezy

Sweet dreams aint made of these

Posted by VonDign 12/25/09 1 opinions

Yooo i had me a dream maaan i tell you.

Iite I dunno how this is so but sometimes i dream about multiple things ... i think cause who knows if they tied together somehow. First dream:

I was possesed and by a she demon. Not only did she take over my body but My consciousness retreated so far back that I was trapped in my own head while the rest of me was being controlled by the she demon. She had me doing all types of shit and when she went to sleep her dreams involved her getting fucked by me. Note she wasnt no ugly ass monster demon she was just some fine chick african chick demon she was tall and she had crazy features that only a man can appreciate when one is doing the nasty. So when she sleeps using my body she joins me in my consciousness and we have sex. Not just sex but incredible crazy supernatural sex like i dunno what it was but i couldn't cum she was riding me for hours n shit. All while this was happening i somehow was getting an exorcism externally. I dunno by who I didn see faces just bodies and words..i think, i have very vivid dreams, aint no rhyme and reason for it...maybe just a message or an act.

So they wake ME up sans african chick demon and I start cumming everywhere like ...i remember a grassy field and me making a huge ass puddle of semen n shit. It was epic...then the dream was over... i woke up but I went back to sleep soon thereafter.

Now the second dream is a recurring dream.

I get off on city line avenue in the "el Train" (philly is so wierd) if you didnt know i think that's where Love Park is at and its also where the financial district is at. I get off there and All of a sudden i'm the only mothafucka that needs to get off at this stop like everyone just disappears and there is limited lighting. So i go past the turnstyle and I slowly go up the stairs cuz its maad quiet I get to where i can see the street over the top step and i see that the street is bare. No one is walking around anywhere. All of a sudden a lion pops out of nowhere and runs up the stairs of an adjacent building. I take no time out to figure out shit i run back down the stairs and the lion follows suit. I get climb up an iron grate and hes just waiting down there occasionally jumping up to try to get me. I feel trapped n panicked and then i wake up.

Yooo this lion has been haunting me since i was little. I remember distinct dreams where it would just stare out at me in an emptry street from an alley, darkness covering half its face. shits crazy...i think i may have posted another dream with this lion recently imna see if i can find it.

PZ

The Misrepresentation

Posted by VonDign 12/24/09 2 opinions

Soft??

Hmmmm? Iunno WTF prompted this description of me but that's what Js called me.
Now she didn't mean it like on some dainty shit bacically she could have used the word laid back or "not aggressive" (I'm sooo aggresive) ask squirts, ask JuJu, ask my X so naturally I feel a bit misrepresented. Lol she stay callin me a pushover like lol anyway. I know im not a rah rah nigga if im talking to you why does everyone in the room has to hear it like lol. This aint about speaking volume though, my demeanor is very....baseline. very chill I don't get a rise out of anything nowadays, some people were fighting over an article of clothing today and i barely bat an eye. Its almost as if im slow i can imagine but im aware I just don't let it affect me. Its a misrepresentation so ima treat it as that...she'll see soon enough.

Back when we were first talking to each other I wasn't all gung ho bout my pursuing her cause she was in a tender place. She was still hurting from her last ship and I understood that, backing up wasn't really anything, i wasn't that deep in. I guess it became a way of defending myself from possible...pain maybe.
But in no way am I soft! Although she didn't mean it in that way i took it that way n she lit a fire under my ass. So I'm bout to take measures to make sure I see hers.. doggystyle

and make her mine in the process lol. Pz

Iite next day flow.

Donnie's log

Got stuck in ice right on Js' block (thank gawd) after a bunch of revving n reversing her mom came up on me kinda scaring me and she couldn't get me out, then her pops came through and got me out! So that was interesting. Good thing I met them already. Ass hole who can't control his whip would have made for a bad first impression lol.

So then she comes out after all that n by this point I already know I'm kissing her. My motivation? I made her a gift and shit i deserve that shit. The soft shit didnt help either at least it lets me know that she's annoyed with the tempo of things too so imna move foward as normal with the best of intentions of course. No deception, cards facing the sky...
Anyway
It's just so damn cold and I'm freezing like a muhhg in my work clothes and sweater/jacket. If it wasnt for the iced out block I would have been warm up in her crib i didn't wanna outright park on the ice so that i get stuck again so moms suggested i borrowed a neighbors driveway but i couldn't just abandon the car just in case so i waited for homegirl outside. I wasn't inconvenienced by the situation I get the privacy i need to comfortably make my move. so we talk n shit I give her the tape i made, she reads the card. She hugs me n and I Kiss her on the cheek, she reciprocates as shes done lately. we joking on each other like "ohhh u got stuck", "ohh look at u in ur sweats" all types of LOL's going around then she comes through with that pushover isht again

I let her know that I'm in fact taking It easy on her. I elaborated, she calls me sweet after some smooth delivery that then prompts me to inquire about how sweet she was.... I then lay one on her and let her know how sweet she was. she aight in the kissing department but first kisses don't tell the whole story n i knew this so that didn't stop me from cheesing and warming up n the iunno 20-30 degree night with concrete coated in ice. . like i said u can never judge kisser by their first kiss, nerves and uncertainty cloud the kiss so to speak. Hopefully she believes in the same thing cuz as we were making out I then proceeded to grab her ass.

:-/

Yeah i know...

It was by accident though.

She was wearing this 3/4 coat all bundled up and I couldn't tell ass from waist specially when my eyes closed. It's aight tho, I always fuck up a first kiss type situation. LoL

hmmm makes for an interesting blog post.

In related news...Me and squirts are officially done fucking . Weird shit. I was about to tell her that we couldn't eff around anymore but by the time i got home her sleepy ass was dormant. Anyway I'm at work and i hit her up during my boring 12 hour shift. She doesnt respond. then i get one of these...

Yea, i have to tell you something.

Here I am in the fucking cologne kiosk about to fall the fuck out. like i'm on some wtf type shit. This chick bout to tell me she's preggo. Now my bare penis have never felt the environment that is the vagine (va-gene) so my white kids are always 99.something percent away from the eggs/tubes. I start to panic and i send her a

"wha?"

and here goes the long wait... im outside n shit pacing.

and then she responds with a...

"I can't have sex wit you anymore"

Im like !!! i cheeesing like a mothafucka im relieved and the fact that i won't get sex x times a week for the time being doesn't really register. I shoot back

Wha? say word lol i was about to tell u the same thing

I like my friend the one whos locked up, hes getting out soon and i always liked him and i knew nothing was ever gonna happen with me and you. Wby?

ohh so u goin for the locked up dude, no doubt.

we said we gon be friends but after she fucks that dude who's coming home from jail ain't no way i'm touching her, real fucking talk.

We split amicably though..like it always goes.

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Celebrity Fuckability 3...or is it 6

Posted by VonDign 12/20/09 1 opinions

I lost Count...

Jack Davey.

The future baby mama...shes bad as hell. listening to her voice doesn't exactly deflate me either. In fact my balloon animal inflates quite quickly when listening to her lol nahh lol

she got a sexy voice though

I can def be your everyday do it good man

The It's Never Too Much, Never Too Much (x9)

Posted by VonDign 12/19/09 1 opinions

TMI BLOG AWARD RULES:
iite boom, post the award on your blog then list 8 things a voyeur / peeping tom could potentially catch you doing if they were watching you .award up to 8 bloggers who match the criteria of this award .make sure they know you enjoy peeping through their windows <id def peep through some of these bloggers windows>

8 Things a Voyeur/Peeping Tom could catch me doing--
.1 Yelling at my Dell laptop and threatening to throw it out the window.
.2 they'd probably catch me nekkid im pretty sure the spanish family across the way seen me buff already.
.3 theyd probably see me holding my dog up and just staring at him...no matter how buck he gets if i pick him up he wont do shit but just look at me...weird, but we bond like that lol.
.4 Rearranging my room
.5 theyd probably catch me watching porns...probably doin a lil sumthing sumthing if im feeling like itJerking off...yeah i said it... kinda
.6 They'd probably catch me jonesing on the phone with somebody.
.7 they'd probably catch me watching basketball football...or a movie on some days..just laying out.
.8 yooo.... they'd probably catch me pop locking and doing some michael jackson dances uh some shit lol

IIte so due to the rules being what they are im gonna have to list 8 bloggers who i feel give out too much info..in a good way cause the deeds are in the details.. whatever.. anyway the 8 are

Lalailybean of heaven on ethernet
Naddy of, thestushfiles.blogspot.com/
❥ jαι @ http://fabandbroke.blogspot.com/
ChattiCathi @ http://bhrittneychae.blogspot.com/
The AF Chix @ http://www.theafgirls.com/

iite fuck it...im likting just the 5

The Birthday Mixtape

Posted by VonDign 12/15/09 4 opinions

OK how "tacky" is this post gonna be.

Well Jess' birthday is (well since its 12:27) tommorow the 16th. And being the dude who's trying to get with her on the serious tip I been plotting to get her something. Now there's no way i can forget shorties birthday cause she's been counting down since like August so every convo we've had, her 21st bday was mentioned in someway lol. Soooo being that i like her like i do I wanted to do something for her day.
When we went to the movies for our first date she mentioned that she loves her chuck taylors. Her facebook headline says that she's a "t-shirt and chucks kinda girl" So i figured i'd cop her a pair since they ain't expensive or anything but i just feel awkward getting her something like that so soon ya know, even though they just sneaks, i think.
I always think there are two types of men out there. One who will get a girl through material shit buying her expensive materials and all and another dude who will get a girl through her mind and heart...and since im not trying to buy her i figured a bday mix will be more personal and more thought out. I can get her chucks when she's mine.

So i decided I'll make her a mixtape since she likes my taste in music so much. Here's whats gonna be on it.

J*Davey: MR. Mister Remix [she likes the original song i put her on to so much i thought i'd break her off the remix]
Blu- Dancing in the Rain [ one of my favs, thought i'd put her on]
Maxwell Pretty Wings [ cause she got some pretty ass wings]
Gym Class Heroes: 4th Period. Clothes off [ one of her favorite songs is Jermaine Stewart's 1986 single "We don't have to take our Clothes Off" this song i has the same hook just that they saying "we have to take our...Clothes off". This song is added just to show her an alternative option lol and besides i thought she'd like it]
Outasight: Darling Its Chemistry. [ self explanatory...it just fits and its an ill song and Its on of the reasons im diggin her]
The Roots-Birthday Girl . [yeah not touching that one]
Raphael Saadiq- Chic like you
Cise Starr- Lady Brown [ this one may not make the final cut, she'd probably appreciate the words because its this dude rapping about...yo just give it a listen..]
Ryan Leslie feat Pusha T - Something that I like [ cuz she got something I like Obviously]
Lupe Fiasco- and he gets the girl [ lol a bit presumptive but i like it. Iunno about this though cause lupe paints himself as a bit of an awkward dude here and i don't want nor need her thinking thats how i see myself cause i don't but all the ladies who have listened to this piece liked it so iunno we'll see]
J*Davey- No More [ iunno...filler and she def will like it]
Maxwell- Stop The World. [Cause this song is the shit and its suave as hell .... like me! lol]

So far that's the CD
Now I'm not trying to come on too strong so there is basically no love songs. I tried to keep it to descriptive songs. Songs that come close to how I see her/us as. Slow songs that let her know i wanna rock her world so to speak (stop the world) and some songs she may dig .....

hmmm i better add some more ^rock your world^ songs...

The Arguement Sex

Posted by VonDign 12/13/09 1 opinions

IIte so ...*thinks* on friday something notable happened apparently someone (I just recently named her "Squirts") decided it was time to unload all her grievances with me, on me. I gotta admit i did ask for it though.mI could have sworn she knew what we were. Granted I could have made it a bit more vanilla for her but I put sprinkles on my words naturally cause i'm too fucking nice (externally).

These are just pieces of the convo...i def wasn't about to type the whole damn thing cause i don't have a smart phone like everyone does...although i do have an Itouch (love that ipod touch). anyway ....

ME:Yo wuttup what u up to?
Her: Chillin
ME: Chillin huh? yo is something buggin you? u seeing someone else or something ?
her: Why u ask that?
Me: I just wanted to know since we aren't texting like usual and you've been short wit me.
her: No im not seeing anyone its just that u be actiing as though u wanna leave when i speak my mind, when you at my house.
Me: Whhat the sleeping over thing??
her: then you complain that your hand hurts or whatever u wont eat my pussy for some reason i dont know why(i actually do) thats how i cum 2 but wateva
her: You never even invited me over to your house
Me: Ohh iite it was good while it lasted i guess...
Her: So basically you got nothing to say about that. how come you didnt invite me over and why is it a hassle for you to actually make me cum.
Me: Cuz I got a car and i could come to you and daaaam! i damn near got carpal tunnel trying to make you cum, besides you cum when i fuck you.
her: Just because i cum when you fuck me doesn't mean i'm gonna cum every single time. and i like getting my pussy eaten just like you want you're dick sucked.
Me: True.. but u get what i was sayin bout the hand thing though right? Carpal tunnel is some serious shit! surgical shit!
her: Yess i do but why don't u like going down on me? be honest why don't you want me to?
Me: I usually dont go for oral cuz im not comfy doing that yet.
her: K
etcetera etcetera, yadda yadda yadda

It should have been done after i was like "ohh iite it was good while it lasted". I'm not the one to argue and if she was so beat up about it she could go and do something. It is what it is like...at this point I'm put off like huh how long were you holding this in?

Me: So we done? iite then
her: we cool. we can continue our thing..

at this point I was hoping that she would be so disgusted that she'd be on some fuck Don shit. But she wasn't then all the talk about cumming and eating and pussy got me antsy so I regrettably said I'd see her on Saturday (the next day)

what?? i felt guilty lol.

But that didn't stop her from continuing on ...well with a lil help from my poking and prodding.
She starts talking about me leaving early last time and how it got her feeling some type of way and that's why she caught an attitude.

her: you cant expect me not to feel some type of way when you cum and don'tmake the move to help me with it. I have to tell you to do it
Me: really wow? thats it? you sounding so selfish right now
her: I'm not selfish if i'm so then why you talking to me then since i'm so selfish
Me: cuz i like the sex and you type cool to be around
her:K
Me: ?? whats that mean??
her: thats how you feel, its fine
me: ooook

Hmm as I look at what i just typed I just noticed that she actually used the phrase "talking to" ...damn she definitely regressed. I didn't notice it cause i take those words literally. Like I take "talking to" as"parle-ing with" or " speaking to" so It didn't really register with me. I personally hate that phrase actually.

At that point i didn't know if it was done or not but then she hit me up the next day talking about "u coming"? So i rolled through and i guess like 10 minutes into "Dead Presidents" she start with a "so u think I'm selfish huh" I got past all that without screwing up my chances of doing what I came to do and we wound up going 4 rounds. Iunno she must have got off on arguing with me cause 5 minutes after that she started grabbing DMV grabbing became stroking then we weren't watching dead presidents no more.

We started kissing (something i haven't done to her in a while) then I lift her shirt and began sucking her DD's I like sucking on the non pierced one so that naturally got the most of my attention. I wrap my left arm under her as i began to play with her cooch under her betty boop pajamas (not for too long though). As i do this she started to head for my dick. As she began stroking it i went to get the condiment so that i can Wrap it Up (wrap it up yall).

Shit I'm a fast starter specially if i have a mini break from sex in general and Ima admit this the first go didn't last long maybe like 10 mins one position. She knows this I know this so I'm not tripping. Second go round was long but she still didn't get hers so I hooked her numb ass clitoris up with some index/pointer action...nothing. I had two more go's left and it kinda became a mission to make her gush. I fucked her deeper gripping her inner thighs as i hit it from the back. The position ended up with me on top of her facing her back gripping her titts and while shes laying on her stomach im pounding it out with her legs closed that felt soooo goood we nutted at the same time. Not much of a victory even though it felt like it because I intended on making her catch up based on principle. So we go to a pizza store n shit for a break cause that last session took a toll on da main vein, besides I had to recharge the batteries. we ate..watched some TV then we were at it again in no time.

One last time cause well...cause I had one last rubber. This "sesh" wasn't anything at all I made her drip twice stroking it from missionary and then from the back. I luv squirters cuz after they cum the pussy just seems soooo better like damn you would think I came too right.... wrong!!! The condom started acting funny...well not acting funny but at a certain point i felt like i was stretching it out so I didnt take any chances... I sacrificed the nut and threw away the condom. She tried getting me off on some HJ isht but it was a no go...she probably got herself some damn carpal tunnel by trying for as long as she did.

yayy family guy is on.

I think I beat my all time high in sessions in a 6 hour period. Anyway how i get four sessions without apologizing and promising anything is beyond me. I should have been more final in the arguement but a part of me still wanted to beat. I def need to set things straight with her though

Yummy

Posted by VonDign 12/9/09 0 opinions

In my ...."travels" i spotted me this fine ass chica
apparently her name is Catalina Taylor and she soo cute

almost wholesome no??

ahh apparently she got herself a lil something something..aint she an adoreable sweet wholeseome...

FREAAKYDEEAKKK!!!!!!

The things I'd do to tha...i mean her.

PZ

To Thine Own Self...

Posted by VonDign 12/3/09 3 opinions

Well I'm not gonna write nothing long I promise I just wanna write some isht down u know get some shitt off my chest.

* I'm hyper as hype as he'll right now. Have u ever had his happen to you? One minute you're normal and the next you are speeeding through everything. You can't sit still, you can't read at a normal pace. You can't wait for this interesting Chimamanda Adichie speech to end but you're so enlightened so you don't dare speed through it ;-) .

Holy shit she is sooo enlightening!

Anyway.

Iunno I'm just on some hyper shit i wanna just gogogo. Music is powerful as fuck. If I wasn't in a mixed/white hood i'd go running right now (it's 4am Dec 2nd).

I wanna know more shit. I can wait to start school again. Imma be so immersed in criminal justice one wouldn't be able to watch the best law annd order shows with me.

There comes a time in my life where I regress in one way or another. If you were with me long enough you've read some of em. Now I regress a little but I tend to find my way back and laying it down in bare words will help.

I've become dependent on people.
Not totally dependent. But making trivial decisions can't go down unless I check with somebody, anybody, anyone I believe has more expertise than I in any given subject that has to do with my decision. Smart? yeaaah but when it comes to a point where u can't make a yeah/naw decision without calling/referring/deferring to someone it's a fucking problem.

While I'm on the subject of shit that's wrong with me at the moment...
I play too many "games"! Well not just the usual games when it comes to relations with the opposite sex its kinda deeper than that. I pride myself on being honest and displaying probity but falsehoods and games leak outta me in other ways now that I think about it. I can say something yet not do it, im not being false in the traditional sense but im not exactly being truthful. Either that or I say one thing knowing that that moment is a moment where i can tell truths but I don't. Like in my head i believe something yet my actions dont follow my beliefs now either i wanna be wit "xyzed" or not. Havin the cake and fuckin it aint me [hmm yess it is].

Or is it?. [it is buddy]

OK but i should be at least a bit more honest about it..

And im too strategic too. When im talkin to someone i try so hard not to be like anyone else I'm not myself (ouch). I try to figure out too much and then Hiding under the veil of games n strategy may come back to bite me in the ass cause it takes away honesty in things.
...oh well... knowing is half the battle and I know this man so im just gonna chill cuz i already did half the work. Now i just gotta hope i reverse some of these trends ...especially the first one.

"To thine own self be true"

In other news:

Yeah two (3) days ago my wrist was killing me like a muthafucka. I thought it was carpal tunnel but that's just cause it was a pain I've never felt before. It's better now though much better. Before i couldn't put my hands together in a prayer formation so now that i can do that with relatively little pain I'm at ease. Neva Eva Eva Eva Eva play three games of bowling and finger a chick for what seems like 30 minutes!

Yeah yeah I coulda switched hands but u know how that go...

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The Thanksgiving Question & random

Posted by VonDign 11/29/09 0 opinions

Happy Belated thanxgiving

a few of the things im thankful for...well one and more than ever its:

I'm very thankful for my fam right now cause they've been the most supportive they have ever been. I mean they have always supported me but that was in better times. Of course nothing is really wrong but they just push me and back me and look out for me and It's evident and clear when thanxgiving rolled around. I cant really think of anything besides health I would be thankful for. Family believed in me during this year of confusion and dissappointment. Things are looking up though cause i got a good score on the GRE's and im counting eggs before they hatch so hopefully im granted luck and I can get into gradschool this fall. Lemme stop i need to hit these applications first but iunno shits just looking UP for once instead of.. u know....middle lol. Progression is a state in which I am most comfortable and I haven't seen it all year since i graduated; but that was a January blog post soo.....

As we continue on:

J*davey my newest addition to my wall of Dimes <--- got some pipes on her. Her partner in crime Beau (the producer) I think his name is produces ear candy at a consistent pace. Not to go all IllRoots/2DopeBoys on you but check out their work for yourself: Beauty in the Distortion/ Land of the Lost.

I finally saw season 3 of the game and "Girl Melanie" is annoying as FUUUUUCK. She stay crying, and how come Derwin gave her that small ass ring for? rookie contracts man..

Ohh yeah i gots my belated Bday gift of a flatscreen TV yesterday (Black Friday) thats all i copped though..

PZ

Meeting of the Same Mind

Posted by VonDign 11/28/09 3 opinions

Often I'd imagine myself goin back in time and meeting myself when I was 13 years old. That would make it 1999 an awesome year, not for me but in general. I'd follow lil man around for a day and I'd just watch a slew of memories as they happen to him and it would just wash over me...I can't think of anything notable now probably just Christine L who was my first crush/lust/ female interest.
Anyway being that I knew so much I'd school my 13 year old self, u kno play butterfly man and all that. I wouldn't change much just give Him some advice u know. Tell him as much as I can n shit. Have him become a lil smart ass. Imagine if my 13 year old self had my current mindset and my knowledge. No one could tell me shit.

I remember back when I was on myspace there was this one blurb/question thatvi had a unique (if I say so myself) answer for. Well it wasn't that unique I think I saw it from somewhere ... MADDA fact I was probably Tupac.

"Well the question was who would you most like to meet?"

I said: I'd wanna meet myself 10years ago and myself 10 years from now so we can have a "State of the Don Conference".

Now I imagine my 13 year old sel walking in with his youthful exuberence, huge ass fuckin glasses our grade school uniform and not knowing what the fuck to expect. Chances are he is uncertain as fuck and just wants to go home. At 13 I was a bit sheltered, not by my folks much but mainly by myself. Trying new things wasn't my forte and I was a bit of a "boo-boo-jea-jea" (creole term for naive pushover) but that's just who I was. As usual he shows up first cause he has nothing else to do and he always shows up on time..."Things are scheduled for a reason". He waits like 10 mins then comes future Don. 33 year old Donnie is a mild mannered dude. He has a certain air about him and 13 year old don is amazed because he is staring at himself yet it's almost as if doni33 is a different person. See donni33 has a wife and a kid. He works for internal affairs and is content with his life. Donald as a whole wasn't he most ambitious dude so as soon as he found a tier with the right amount of salary and responsibility with a dash of career worth he stuck to it. Hes seen places lil Don13 hasn't even read about yet, Istanbul, Brazil, Amsterdam, Australia, Cape Town, Paris, Scotland... he's a worldly dude. He's seen alot so he's as even keel as he's ever been and he's mastered the art of reading people. So don13's amazement with him was easily read. They sit down and don33 can't help but smile at the pudgy kid. Don13 does the same but as they speak in comes don23 with headphones blaring...don33 can't help but feel the feeling of euphoria as he's heard every effing song that the collective has heard thus far in their lives. He thinks how 2009 was an "ehh" year for music but the Dons always had nice taste in music so they've always been unaffected. Don23 gives each of em a handshake, a headnod and a wassup he also smiles at lil d. See Don23 was a a medium in between the two naturally. He's very skeptical and thinks bad of the world but he has to live in it so he's looking to find his place where the shit world would not affect him. This place is a mental, social and a financial place and not a physical..place =). He has a bit of ambition so that's about all on his mind besides the sex. He can be a bit cold and insensetive (so im told) at times and it was evident when he arrived but he warmed up real quick...after all he is amongst more than friends and family. So the three sit down and talk. We empower the kkid, teach him how to grow up better than he's destined to be...basically we give him a cheat sheet on life cause we are always looking to improve isht..we are calculating like that. For the 23 year old we remind him to stop being so skeptical and to look at the world from multiple perspectives like he preaches. We talk about focus and we reinstall the "kid" in him. Along the way he's lost some of that childlike optimism because even though everything around him at times seems bleak, focus, optimism and strength will lead him through. And for the Don33, all he asks is that we stop eating like pigs. Its more directed towards lil Donnie but Don23 could do more to ensure that Don33 won't have to worry about doctor visits. Don33's main motivation for being at this meeting is to make himself a better person literally and figuratively and to impart wisdom on his "selfpeers" to ensure such a thing happens.

Iunno why i did this ...im just bored it does however tell me something about who i was, am and wish to be though..."intewesting"!!

PZ

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R.I.P.

Posted by VonDign 11/24/09 1 opinions

Just some people who have inspired me in influential times in my life...

Tupac Amaru Shakur the great

Kurt Cobain

Jimi Hendrix

No they don't inspire me to make music because i don't make music. Their music and they themselves as people have each been a force behind who I am as a person though. I started listening to Pac at around 1995 annnnd Hendrix and Cobain made their way into my ipod during my sophomore year at college 10 years later... it was a Goodyear indeed...

Just some words..

Jimi's worldliness and his appeal to a diverse group of people reminds me of myself. He seemed like he was always in his own world. Its like no one was watching him, even when he was on stage lighting guitars on fire. He spoke with such..comfort that it spoke volumes figuratively. Me, i can't be placed in a certain mold and when i saw and heard of Jimi Hendrix I was intrigued because he was an unconventional figure at a time when it was reaaaal unconventional to be who he is and he is right at home.
Tupac's pure unadulterated passion with a side of deep intellectualism and pride in oneself inspired me to be that way as soon as I was completely able. Although sometimes he would ramble with such randomness he put it out there and the media and us fans and even college professors dug it. Ain't no one like Tupac right now in this day and age and i can say with full confidence that if he was still alive alot of things would not be the same. He would have surprised alot of people if the circumstances was different.
Kurt Cobain is that dude. If you don't know of him then Iunno what to tell you breh. His what-seems-to-be nihilistic beliefs and libertine ways appealed to me in a time when I was iunno...falling off the tracks so to speak. Nirvana's albums was my fuckin shiiiiiiit!!! They still are! Although I eventually "woke up"part of me still has that don't give a fuck nothing matters attitude, its just not that strong; I call it being laid back. The same characteristics that allowed Nirvana to create some powerful ass music ultimately led to Kurt Cobain's death. Part of me is sad cause of the way he went out but but he went out like he wanted to so... what can ya do?

These dudes overlap sooo effing much. Pac and Kurt both died at 27 (unnatural causes of course) . Jimi and Kurt died with a varying degree of drug usage as a cause . Jimi and Kurt are both influential Rockstars. Pac and Hendrix are. both. umm. black.

ummm

ok lemme stop.

Yeah Musically and personality wise...they got it. They spoke their truth in all of their interviews which is why the media loved them so much. An example below:

Interviews are the shit...watch it or not, Pz

Tuesdays Date

Posted by VonDign 11/18/09 3 opinions

What a day lol

As much as i've said I would never date again you would expect me to abide by such a thing...at least for a while right. Wrong!! LoL not only did I take the last chick out (see last post). I got to take girl JS out on a date. Now i did step up to her kinda..she went on a tirade about her ex one night (again) and I just said straight up it doesnt seem like shes ready to talk to another dude, namely, me. i'm a listener but exes..i cant do, if a chick is still tied up on her exboyfriend my philosophy is to generally not even continue pursuing. Anyway...i took a lil break of communication from homegirl and she hit up my wall (FB) on some " my phone aint broken" type shit so .... i hit her up on AIM. lol, hate phones... anyway, one minute we talkin bout work and the next she kinda asks me out (women). Part of me was past the whole JS saga but iunno something could happen and she talkin about ihop so we set up a date n aything. Generally i dont get excited about goin out on dates n shit. Im on some whatever happens happens whether it be a kiss/sex or the hope/idea i'm gonna have a nice time. But this one was def different cuz her enthusiasm for it brought mine up. her status messages reflected how excited she was and i dug that. Anyway her schedule got muffed up so we couldnt do the ihop thing so I just took her to the movies...

2012.... redonk movie son!

I was on some... Why the uFck are they makin a movie of this for!? If memory serves me right the whole world blows up. Well it a bit more cryptic then that end of the Mayan calendar, end of days, Armageddon type iSht but [spoiler alert highlight the next couple lines to see] ***there's an ultimate finality that no one should be able to escape right. Yet niggas are takin planes n shit over to some mechanical/technological ship and people are being left behind n shit, talk about making the end of days your own, in reality no one escapes... i think, i mean, if in fact the world does blow up where the fuck u gonna run to??.***

Seeing the catastrophe was crazy tho. the visuals of monuments we see everyday in certain states/countries fall apart and just get destroyed due to natural causes is a bit mind blowing in a cathartic kind of way. the movie almost put me at peace (as if i wasnt already) with the whole world ending thing. Although if it doesn't happen ala Y2K i'd certainly appreciate it.

Anyway making this date blogworthy was easy feat because a few hours before I went out with JS she hit me up and was like "my parents want to talk to you before you take me out" I was like :-o "huh?"

" moms wanna ask you questions"

I was cracking up! I mean, yeah, it's not your run of the mill everyday thing, at least not in my world but it excited me. In a weird way i looked foward to it, not cause i get to meet moms lol naaaahh cause i've never been grilled by the father before on some Martin Lawrence from Bad Boys II type shit. It was a new experience and I dig new experiences lol, i want to see how it would be like if it was me. I said it was cool and when i finally sat down and spoke with them they asked me all types of questions. They asked about my goals, am I in school, etc etc... Lol moms even asked me for ID lol I gave her both my IDs lol NY and PA! holla lol!
Most akward moment was when they asked what I liked about JS! I told em the truth even though I didn't really know how to say it since my attraction to homegirl is more than physical (type,chemistry, etc, etc). Anyway, I carried a sense of humor about the whole thing.. Shiet they did too! They even gave me water from a glass so they can have my DNA lol on some csi isht lol. Mad funny, Js told me her moms was a csi nut so when they were particular about givin me bottled water in a glass a lightbulb went off. Sheeit, Detective Stabler stay getting muhfuckas with that trick on SVU. It was a bit od but it was in jest...i hope. I've only seen such things on sitcoms like Family Matters or Fresh Prince so it was cool being the nervous boy taking daddys lil girl out on a date. It was... interesting. I know "cute" is a better word but i feel thats an effeminate yet accurate way of describing it but i guess it fits....unless i find a better word by the time i finish editiing this entry. [didn't]

PZ

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Donnie n Jah pt 2

Posted by VonDign 11/15/09 2 opinions

I wrote this a while back ...

*Some Notes*
"( )" = present day edit...cuz shit changes sometimes
Jah is the latest chiq that i wrote about theres a link here somewhere... Allons y (go ahead)

Iite I just got back from shorty crib (this past Tuesday) . Annnnnnd I'm on that fuck It shit. As much as I wanted to just break it off wit her I couldn't. I didn't feel like it.

Why?

A... that's some foul isht if I just left her based on her past cuz us men as a majority be on that, heavy... Shiet maybe some the ladies also. Besides just cuz she lost her card earlier and had more action than I (smh) shouldn't condemn her to umm "whoredom".

*Ahem* any way...

B... I dig (dug) her she got a body and we cliq(ed) like that. That's why coming at her like I did was...awkward and she probably sensed that I wasn't as firm on my trying to break it off with her as i should have been. She also gave me maaaad chances to choose my words and to think the decision over and that was something lol; especially since I came at her on some rude/jackass type shit. Yeah ya boy was on the phone basically sayin I didnt wanna be with her cause she was on her libertine shit. I disguised my words just a little so whatever came out was very transparent but I guess it takes some kinda "like for someone" to withstand that and it was notable.
__________

(written today)

So we broke in a three pack one night...did it thrice on another night ....

annnd

She a freak! and that's saying something when I say it, like on some OD isht! I cant get a 5 minute refractory period after i bust. Like i had her squirting all types of....i digress for crassness sake....and for the fact that i have no clue what comes out when one does that lovely umm ...its a sight to see

check that off my to do list

I'm just saying... I made her "arrive" 2/3 times (i get tired) n isht and then I get there to where she's at so we stop and the first thing she says is ohhh i "want it again" I'm like damn can i at least take the condo off??!?. Now im always down to go rounds but I'm starting to think she's insatiable..even when there are obvious signs that should tell me that arrived home she goes and tell me she lives on the other side of town wit her grandma! Feel me? Then again..maybe thats just another challenge. ohh well.. its definitely a good problem so I can't complain much, im a freak my damn self! I'm def not keeping a 12 pack on me when i see her tho.

Other than that she mad cool and she's someone to chill with in this lonely ass city, I'm enjoying that just as much. Shit and she got 76ers tickets! Part of me likes her but part of me don't, at least like on some potential wifey isht, she just don't got it. As i stay around her more and more and I'm trying to be candid but I'm bored... Its only after you get all of the 20 that u start missing the 80

Yeah homegirl wanna give me the the 20 twice over. I appreciate it but i cant see myself with her for long. lol iunno wrong? maybe. but what the fuck am i supposed to do? Give her a complimentary year of relationserviceship? I should have just deaded it back then. The thing is i do wanna be cool with her sooo ima just pretend to be insecure, nice and indecisive, you know, like i was back in 2004...

lol

pZ

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Apparently i was mistaken

Posted by VonDign 11/8/09 3 opinions

Tyga

and these two arent the same person

who woulda knew ...oh well

thoback clip of .... well.. whatever

Posted by VonDign 1 opinions

Yooo remember this House Party..i was watching this yesterday and it it brought back mad memories lol. As im watching this im thinking... have i ever been to a house party as "naturally live" as this one.. ain't no alcohol in sight..no weed. I wonder if such a party can be pulled off today. It is od dance heavy though and thats certainly alive and well today, except slow songs, that seems to have died out a while ago, smh. But i dig the vibes in this movie man. No one is skulking (word?), mean muggin in a dark corner..shiet..there are lights on lol!!

I think this movie came out in like 1990 and it makes light of the shit i see in house parties back in MY hey day (last year lol). Reminisce with me lol

Alckies...theres always that dude thats ODing on the alcohol. Either (s)he just failed a test or (s)he just can't have a good without "the sauce" running through his/her body. They make for a nice lil side show to whatever is going on ...shit they a walking conversation piece when u trying to talk to a special lady.

The ABDC reject. Iunno what it is. but it seems that in every party there is a group huddled up in the middle of the dance floor and they watching some dude (most likely) pop lock drop and dop it lol doing all that fancy dancing isht. looking like an extra in a Missy Elliot video lol I'm not hating..if u got it use it sheeeeeeeiiiit!

The dude/chick no one wanna be seen wit.

The pot heads in a separate room foggin it up looking like a hallucinogenic sauna. talking about politics and religion and philosphy...heart to hearts if they cool like that lol.

the couple making out in the corner/middle of the dancefloor

Life of a Party: the loud ass dude/chick whos havin a convo with the whole house. Sometimes its the Alckie lol

The fashionably late dude who everybody wants to see.

Anyway... I luv this clip cause that exchange between chill and Martin Lawrence's character is funny as shit to me lol.

but here ya go...this is the clip i originally wanna drop

Donnie n the sleaze??

Posted by VonDign 11/6/09 2 opinions

...

My mood right now? Iunno I'm down but I can only go up from here. I met a new chick not too long ago and she occupied my time on Sunday. We saw a movie n all took her to wendys lol (her idea, i hate fastfood chains). Next thing u know we forwarding over to this lovers lane type of spot (her idea, im still type new to the city) overlooking some body of water where we proceeded to do some objectionable things in the backseat of the car. Im gonna spare the details in an effort to be alot less crass (being that the viewers are generally women). Let's just say it was all foreplay...no coitus cuz red death was looming...again smh.
Anyway I saw her again yesterday (tues) and more of the same happened. But she kept dropping subtle hints about her past which led me to pop the question. I asked her straight up: how many bodies have u had? aka how many dudes have you been with (F*ck*d)?

She gives me A number I wasn't expecting. Think Lebron James number but the other way. and I proceded to turn as pale as a chocolate brotha can. I kept my composure but she sensed my shock. She kept tryin to defend herself but all I could think about was me and the worse case scenario. Eventually I responded like I'm cool (unconvincingly) cuz she really feeling me when in my head I'm like game over. I can't be with a chick who's been with that many dudes. Yeah, yeah i know double standard, judging, sexist pig, nigga please, wtf and all that but sorry no can do. She asked me if I thought she was a "whore" as she put it and I said no cause I didn't kno the situation behind all them. When that statement left my tongue in my mind that was the truth. I really don't know what situations she's been in but that didn't mean I was down with gettin with her cuz that's a number I can't do; not for the fact that the number is type high bit the risk definitely isn't worth the reward. Its not the number its basically the possibilities and her attitude towards it. shit look how easy it was for me

Smh

Am I oding? Am I wrong to do homegirl like i did. I tried breaking it off but i made it sound as if she an effing skank which may not be the case (i was guilty lol)... iunno u divide that number by 7 and u get like 5.3 per year which isnt that bad. Besides that's probably normal for all I know. I just never had to ask a chick this. my curiosity kept peaking because of all these lil hints n shit. I'm not judging homegirl. Shiet I know dudes that are worse and i don't condone that either. . What's done is done. Kinda... the door is stilll open a bit cause i need to gauge on whether or not I am actually acting based on my OD fear of catching something that i cant let go of...or is it some common sense shit...besides i don't know how the average 22 year old do...

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Arm and Hammer award!! =)

Posted by VonDign 11/3/09 2 opinions

AWARDED!

"Girl Reesey" over at sweetinsanityandsarcasm broke me off an award called the honesty scrap. I wanna thank moms, ms butler from grade school, the decay of society so that i have some stuff to talk about, my past and last but not least Me! lol

The Honest Scrap Award Rules

Present the award to seven bloggers whose blogs you find brilliant in content and/or design or who have encouraged you.
Tell those seven people that you have given them the Honest Scrap Award.
Share ten honest things about yourself.

I'M AWARDING:

Whoever reads my blog lol specially sei'lani aka "that chick with the fro" and Breezi F Baby lol

10 THINGS TOTALLY HONEST THINGS ABOUT ME

1. I love sex but i keep it on lock cause im scared of catching something so im celibate until i see some potential in a chick to be long term.

2. im 5'9

3. my fav show of all time is probably the wire..i own every episode.

4. Biggest surprise of my life was when my dick got bigger after i lost weight.

5. Fave color is Burgundy

6. Italian cuisine is my fav out of all foods. Ziiitiii!!!! *cough* Reese *cough*

7. I have range like you wouldn't believe..block or banquet i fit comfortably

8. i never broke a bone ever

9. i've only bust off from head once.

10. i've needed optical assistance since i was two years old

u like it u got it

PZ

Overdue shit + Neo Soul

Posted by VonDign 11/1/09 2 opinions

Iite now this is waaay overdue

But

now more than ever.... I notice y'all ===>

Followers, fans, people who read blogs who's stop by once in a while....I see y'all.

As much as I've tried to ignore the fact that people do read my shit the list has kept growing and I've even had interactions with some (2) of y'all. Whether it's with y'all commenting on mine and vice versa the relationship is established and I can't ignore it... Shit I like it! Yeah I'm not self analyzing myself as much as I have been in the beginning so in a way the blog has become alot less serious and a smidge less personal (a smidge) but I like where it's at...fuck..thats where im at in my life. Im on my facepaint/why so serious flow and it comes out when i write and otherwise. It's a nice combo, a bit Less woe is me and Alot more random. So it evens out...in many ...different..ways... with a remainder.
I'm gonna admit the thought of people reading what I thought ..I digress...what I really thought scared me. By my 10th follower i wanted to go private and i even thought it messed up my writing (as if I was Huck Finn or sum shit lol) I held back a little and i didn't want to be a prisoner of those eyes. Whether they actually read or not..the threat was enough to send me underground. Specially since at one point the theme of this blog /journal/self psych notes was my damn messed up self and my spotted past. Shit in some ways the blog fixed me. Cuz like I said some things look different when they are written down and it changes your perspective on the subject helpin me see myself in another light. Bringing that light onto the world yeah on some corny shit lol but yeah.

Anyway in my year and change in the blogosphere Ive seen many an "ode to the followers" so this is such a post.

Uhh

Goodlookinout

Now as we continue on....

damn this chick Teedra Moses can blow. IN other news i think im starting to journey into the realm of neo soul. The music is so distinct...very earthy lol its the only word i can think of to describe the sound of the music ive heard so far [alot of Raph Saadiq, D'angelo's Brown Suga, lil bit of Joss Stone] The vocals are as genuine and as filled with talent as ive heard. Right now I'm listening to Raphael Saadiq's "As Ray Ray" album and i think ima branch out to this Teedra chick lemme see what she looks like. This will have no affect on whether ima listen to her or not.

whoa

Keri who???

yesss maaa'am

She has my FULL attention. someones going on the wall <+====== anyone know of any other neo soul acts i should fuck wit, put me on! PZ

Sent from my iPod ohh and a bit more randomness.. i loved this fuckin movie as a youngin, this was my fav part lol...

Surveyance

Posted by VonDign 1 opinions

1. What time did you get up this morning? 930 cuz i dreamt of killin somebody

2. How do you like your steak? burnt around the edges and well done
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? halloween 2 the second one..umm yeah
4. What is your favorite TV show? SVU, dog whisperer, burn notice, PTI
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? australia..portland, hawaii
6. What did you have for breakfast? PANCAKES!!!
7. What is your favorite cuisine? Italiano
8. What foods do you dislike? seafood, the idea of eatin chitlins make me sick
9. Favorite place to eat? friendlys,fridays,applebees and the like
10. Favorite dressing? hot sauce :-)
11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? Nissan Maxima, moms 09 Camry :-D
12. What are your favorite clothes? my hoodies and wifebeaters now that i can fit in one
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? Brazil, FLA and New Orleans pre Katrina and those listed above,
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? Half full!
15. Where would you want to retire? Canada parce que je parle francais
16. Favorite time of day? hmmm the morning cuz the news is new
17. Where were you born? Bronx, New York City!
18. What is your favorite sport to watch? Basketball
19. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? LaLa
20. Bird watcher? beaks or boobs ;-) lol J/p ladies
21. Are you a morning person or a night person? Night... mos def i hardly see the mornings anymore unless im working!
22. Do you have any pets? Homeboy Lucky the lil fox terrier who turned his back on his race
23. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? Im probably gonna have sex soon
24. What did you want to be when you were little? to be honest i wanted to be what would later be known as a ummm etrrorist. lol iunno why. i liked the power they have against established order...weird shit but fuck them cuz they fucked with NYC ...and other people too.
25. What is your best childhood memory? me being about 7 years old and trying to get my childhood girl-friend to sleep with me in the same bed. hmm maybe i should get into porn.
26. Are you a cat or dog person?Def dogs cats are weird and meticulous.
27. Are you married? nahh
28. Always wear your seat belt? yeah its the law ya know
29. Been in a car accident? yeah twice
30. Any pet peeves? tchh umm yeah i do
31. Favorite Pizza Toppings? pepperoni
32. Favorite Flower? ummm iunno cactus
33. Favorite ice cream? i hate ice cream
34. Favorite fast food restaurant? i don't do mickey d's, BK and the like... ooohh pizza!
35. How many times did you fail your driver's test? twice...hidden stop sign in Staten Island and a stupid ass student driver the second time.
36. From whom did you get your last email?
careerbuilder
37. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Macys since i get 20% off
38. Do anything spontaneous lately? speeding
39. Like your job? nope
40. Broccoli? love it
41. What was your favorite vacation? never went on one...
42. Last person you went out to dinner with? moms
43. What are you listening to right now? Raphael Saadiq feat Teedra Moses- I want you back
44. What is your favorite color? burgundy, black
46. How many are you tagging for this quiz? whoever
47. What time did you finish this quiz? 137am

48. Coffee drinker? nope...never again!!!! since a bug wound up on my tongue that one time

Fight Club

Posted by VonDign 10/29/09 2 opinions

Iite so I havent always been the cool dude that I am today. I remember back in the day I would stay getting into fights stay confronting niggas not with words but with fists n feet. Simply put there was a time in my life where fighting solved everything and most of the time it didn't but it was the ultimate closure. It was how I got rid of bullies and how I dealt with backstabbers and judas'.

I guess that's why I tend to watch mixed martial arts (MMA) cuz it's basically two dudes enter a cage and fight and I mean truly fight not that fake wrestling shit ( even though 95-98 I was the I'll wrestling fan). I never was into boxing maybe just Mike Tyson since he was a fucking menace with the hands and otherwise lol. I guess it's because it's too disciplined. When I fought I basically was on that unorthodox "Krazate" shit. Anything went all but the foreign objects and I liked rumblin that way so i appreciate people using mixed martial arts to beat each other up (pause ll) to a bloody pulp (ll). Anyway MMA is mos definitely an up and coming sport I've fucked with it off an on for years now but this is the strongest push toward the mainstream it's had since it's primitive inception. I can't help but watch and get hype for it cuz it's kinda like a rush seeing someone get knocked out cause i guess deep down inside i'm still a violent person.

Im a chill dude now cause i needed a wake up call and beating my brother up for a box of captain crunch was that wake up call..ive basically been a pacifist ever since...but i've had *umm* thoughts lol

Shit as much as Ive fought (when i was younger) I've never knocked anyone out! Then again I didn't have muscles back then iunno I feel like if I wasn't fat as a kid I'd be a bony ass muhhfucka I had no muscles under there at all lol.

Then came Albany then that all changed but not before I've noticed lil Asian fellas benching more than I could at that point lol.

Yeah MMA can be ufcked up and I love watching it. With boxing all u get is some hits n clinching for half a round per round..

Shit I sometimes dream of doing it. It's been way too long since I fought and that's a good thing cuz niggas is crazy/sensitive/bitch made/stupid nowadays and you are liable to get killed... Win or lose...

ohh yeah

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How are these two not siblings

Posted by VonDign 10/28/09 0 opinions

James Marsden

Elizabeth Banks

whatever... some of em think we all look alike also...

Jackin4Blogz

Posted by VonDign 3 opinions

Yeap i decided to (like my two fav Bloggers Reese n Lalaliybean) to do this lil random survey they got going. So here we go...

:1: MY EX- Is probably the only black guyanese chick in Beijing, she had some long ass nipples.
:2: MAYBE I SHOULD- studying
:3: I LOVE- women, money, that commercial for that videogame starring Jack Black (Welcome to hell yeah! rated M for Mature!) breasts. being clean shaven. MUSIC!!
:4: PEOPLE WOULD SAY THAT I'M- capricious, weird, quiet, a horndog, handsome
:5: I DON'T UNDERSTAND- why politics comes before the most basic of needs.. (health, a clean world, equal rights) fuck politics and the man
:6: WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING- Its usually because of a text from a random somebody who wakes up earlier than i.
:7: I LOST- umm my...nail clippers.
:8: LIFE IS FULL OF- crazy sudden alternations of boring and exciting..
:9: MY PAST IS- unique...
:10: I GET ANNOYED WHEN- when people annoy me. when someone lies. when someone is closeminded and OD traditional. When one wears skinny jeans and overtly follows trends to the letter just to get attention. when someone od's on tatts n piercings...ok maybe not the last one.
:11: PARTIES ARE- the best when alcohol is involved and everyone is drunk and start doing random stuff like breaking out into song and jumping off of things. College was the shit...
:12: I WISH- I was exempt from ever working as a mandate from God. and (s)he would look out for me and grant me wishes!
:13: DOGS- are the shit...the bigger the better. Lucky is the exception.
:14: CATS- in general will stay clear of Lucky after I let him kill that fat golden one next door.
:15: TOMORROW- I work..
:16: I HAVE LOW TOLERANCE- for annoying people and for alcohol (since I graduated)
:17: IF I HAD A MILLION DOLLARS- I'd invest in a chain of strip clubs and porn. I'd give some to moms and I'd see the world.
:18: I'M TOTALLY TERRIFIED: of being solo for the rest of my life. Birds (yeesh) and being a bum