COGNI.VOL...

This is about the movie "Her". I'm not even entirely finished with the flick and my mind and my thoughts are racing because of it mainly because I have so many ideas and theories about it.

Spoiler the fuuuck alert tho.

Okay so before Theodore Twombly met OS Samantha he was a husk of a man, just a sad dude. Failed marriage, sucky job, unfulfilled, unadventurous, just a sad mothafucka.

He "met" Samantha and fell in love and then he started changing, he was more "out there", more outgoing, and more empowered.

This ain't some new shit tho, it's happened to all of us. Most of us don't even gotta fall in love to start acting "brand new".

What bugged me out tho was that his chick wasn't even fucking real!

She was a Google android, shit, the Bitch may as well be IOS7 lol. She wasn't physically there to gawk at, to hold, to fuck, to observe. She was a voice, a Personality, a brain, maybe.

But not really

See, to Twombly, the Bitch was indeed real.

Eventually, in the movie, she made him happy and introspective and open to shit. She provoked deep thoughts and feelings such as love, peace, joy, uncertainty, jealousy, pain, loss, and sadness. Even though she wasn't there, in some ways, she was. My man went through a whole emotional roller coaster with a girl who existed to him but was not physically in this world. THAT BUGGED ME THE FUCK OUT !!!

and it shouldn't.

Women are more than tits, ass, head, thighs, pussy, thots (wtf is that), buss it babies, bad bitches, baby mamas, stallions, ride or die bitches, or barbie and I know this man but it's so easy to forget!

No offense....

This movie has a moral and it literally took away the physical form of a female to get that message out to us. A woman's value is not dependent on the size of her assets but on the way she makes us feel about the world and most importantly about ourselves.

I'm strictly speaking in terms of a woman's worth to a man in the romantic, boy, girl relations ,sense tho. Fuck all the other shit. Y'all don't need me to tell you that women are more than simply the object of a man's affections.

The man was acting brand new, he was climbing mountains, sailing boats, dancing in the streets, singing songs, signing divorce papers (letting go of his ex), just being a complete 180 degree version of the man he was before he met Samantha and her body and physical well-being had nothing to do with it. It was weird yet beautiful to see when i truly thought about it.

Don't get it fucked up tho, in essence we all probably do feel that way about our significant others but it's very easy to get wrapped up in makeup and ass and booty and titties,  hair and other tangibles that a woman may possess.

This movie kinda made me realize {it mostly reminded me} that all that bullshit pales in comparison to what that dude Twombly felt. the elation of finally being understood and accepted by another intelligent being is severely underrated to me and to others in society. It is sad because it may be the key to the happiness we strive for.

I wanna climb mountains and sail boats too

:-(

IIte i don't make it a habit watching these type of movies but since HBO, CMAX and wack ass showtime have a 10 movie rotation going on (not showtime they stay showing terrible/ uninteresting films) I sometimes succumb to some movies i would not otherwise glance at. The
other day I saw SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE for the first time. Now I had no plans on seeing this film, i dismissed it as something i wouldn't be interested in. The demographics of the film didnt demand any interest from me and I heard it was a musical so I def was not about to see no slumdog become a millionaire. One morning i wake up and it just started so i was like fuck it It just started and it won awards so why the eff not.
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Safe to say the movie was tight. There were alot of elements to it. The way it was shot, the cinematography the story was all different yet the same (if that makes any sense) that is all imna say cause I try not to spoil anything...or anyone ;-)





Another movie that I ended up watching due to circumstance was "Not Easily Broken". At first i thought it was a tyler perry flick so i definitely wasn't gonna see it but again, I didn't have anything to do at the moment and it was in its early stages so I said fuck it. Considering Morris Chestnut being in the movie it was okaaay. It made me think about alot of things. Aight spoiler alert I know what I just said above but...fuck it! im trying to tell you something.

This movie brought to light alot of issues in relationships that has never applied to me...ever but its not beyond the realm of possibility in the future. = i felt sorry for the main character ummm Morris Chestnut's character (Dave).
Here he was apparently not the breadwinner of his (loosely) household for some reason and his wife reminds him of that daily. He working in the community and is a goood dude but his wife doesnt want that for him she wants him to do this that and the third basically in an attempt to deter him from his passion of helping the kids in his community for i guess a more lucrative way to spend his time.

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there was this one quote that he said that had me thinking:

Dave Johnson: "Down through history men have always been measured by how hard they work and cultivated, how well the protected their wife and children. In the old days woman saw their man as conquerers, providers, heroes. But somewhere along the line that changed, woman started to became their own hero, maybe it was because their man forgot to be reliable or because woman don't want to be protected anymore or maybe woman had to be their own hero because of the pain they had to endure in life. But whatever the cause, the world took away a man's reason for being a man. It told him he wasn't important anymore and when that happened, it turn the whole world upside down. " - IMDB

It made me think of the world today and where we as black men are. We, as a culture (in general) are surrounded by the wrong examples of what a Man is in terms of his mission, his duties and his place in the family. We have fathers not taking care of their kids in a disturbing rate. We have dudes going into a lifestyle that doesn't enable them to take care of a family much less themselves; If anything the lifestyle does quite the opposite and becomes their undoing. Lil boys will see that and grow up continue to do what their predecessors was doing and contributing to a negative cycle not believing that they can strive for/achieve something better. Now while all this is happening young ladies develop a motivation to not become stuck in the same rut many of their moms or their friends are in, you know, effin with some lame ass drug dealing ass, deadbeat niggamon who hits them or effs with a multitude of other females.
Now that i think about it, women as a whole have been getting their stuff together (compared to back in the day when they couldn't) but black women are probably the most fervid with theirs. They really go after it and I'm saying that WE (Black Males) are reason behind their collective drive, and not in a good way.
So these same ladies grow up motivated and become their own "personal heroes" saving themselves from a life of sub mediocrity. And it makes sense to do so, not every Juliet is gonna have a a Romeo there are alot more women in the world than men and it doesn't help that most of us black males are getting killed or locked up.

Ayye! not to say that all of us Men are diced shit some black males been doing their thing out there especially when it comes to setting themselves up to sustain their own familial empire one day; especially us, the ones on the come up. Im just saying although our numbers are growing the fact that women (in general) don't trust us to take care of things bugs me. It puts us black males further in a negative light and I'm not trying to end up as an incompetent dunce like some of us out here. Granted i like being needed, i might not always want to help due to one reason or another but it feels aight and homie in the movie seemed drained from his predicament. It all ended well though of course (the Hollywood way) but iunno the movie made me think.

What a day lol

As much as i've said I would never date again you would expect me to abide by such a thing...at least for a while right. Wrong!! LoL not only did I take the last chick out (see last post). I got to take girl JS out on a date. Now i did step up to her kinda..she went on a tirade about her ex one night (again) and I just said straight up it doesnt seem like shes ready to talk to another dude, namely, me. i'm a listener but exes..i cant do, if a chick is still tied up on her exboyfriend my philosophy is to generally not even continue pursuing. Anyway...i took a lil break of communication from homegirl and she hit up my wall (FB) on some " my phone aint broken" type shit so .... i hit her up on AIM. lol, hate phones... anyway, one minute we talkin bout work and the next she kinda asks me out (women). Part of me was past the whole JS saga but iunno something could happen and she talkin about ihop so we set up a date n aything. Generally i dont get excited about goin out on dates n shit. Im on some whatever happens happens whether it be a kiss/sex or the hope/idea i'm gonna have a nice time. But this one was def different cuz her enthusiasm for it brought mine up. her status messages reflected how excited she was and i dug that. Anyway her schedule got muffed up so we couldnt do the ihop thing so I just took her to the movies...

I was on some... Why the uFck are they makin a movie of this for!? If memory serves me right the whole world blows up. Well it a bit more cryptic then that end of the Mayan calendar, end of days, Armageddon type iSht but [spoiler alert highlight the next couple lines to see] ***there's an ultimate finality that no one should be able to escape right. Yet niggas are takin planes n shit over to some mechanical/technological ship and people are being left behind n shit, talk about making the end of days your own, in reality no one escapes... i think, i mean, if in fact the world does blow up where the fuck u gonna run to??.***

Seeing the catastrophe was crazy tho. the visuals of monuments we see everyday in certain states/countries fall apart and just get destroyed due to natural causes is a bit mind blowing in a cathartic kind of way. the movie almost put me at peace (as if i wasnt already) with the whole world ending thing. Although if it doesn't happen ala Y2K i'd certainly appreciate it.


Anyway making this date blogworthy was easy feat because a few hours before I went out with JS she hit me up and was like "my parents want to talk to you before you take me out" I was like :-o "huh?"

" moms wanna ask you questions"

I was cracking up! I mean, yeah, it's not your run of the mill everyday thing, at least not in my world but it excited me. In a weird way i looked foward to it, not cause i get to meet moms lol naaaahh cause i've never been grilled by the father before on some Martin Lawrence from Bad Boys II type shit. It was a new experience and I dig new experiences lol, i want to see how it would be like if it was me. I said it was cool and when i finally sat down and spoke with them they asked me all types of questions. They asked about my goals, am I in school, etc etc... Lol moms even asked me for ID lol I gave her both my IDs lol NY and PA! holla lol!
Most akward moment was when they asked what I liked about JS! I told em the truth even though I didn't really know how to say it since my attraction to homegirl is more than physical (type,chemistry, etc, etc). Anyway, I carried a sense of humor about the whole thing.. Shiet they did too! They even gave me water from a glass so they can have my DNA lol on some csi isht lol. Mad funny, Js told me her moms was a csi nut so when they were particular about givin me bottled water in a glass a lightbulb went off. Sheeit, Detective Stabler stay getting muhfuckas with that trick on SVU. It was a bit od but it was in jest...i hope. I've only seen such things on sitcoms like Family Matters or Fresh Prince so it was cool being the nervous boy taking daddys lil girl out on a date. It was... interesting. I know "cute" is a better word but i feel thats an effeminate yet accurate way of describing it but i guess it fits....unless i find a better word by the time i finish editiing this entry. [didn't]


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Yooo remember this House Party..i was watching this yesterday and it it brought back mad memories lol. As im watching this im thinking... have i ever been to a house party as "naturally live" as this one.. ain't no alcohol in sight..no weed. I wonder if such a party can be pulled off today. It is od dance heavy though and thats certainly alive and well today, except slow songs, that seems to have died out a while ago, smh. But i dig the vibes in this movie man. No one is skulking (word?), mean muggin in a dark corner..shiet..there are lights on lol!!

I think this movie came out in like 1990 and it makes light of the shit i see in house parties back in MY hey day (last year lol). Reminisce with me lol

Alckies...theres always that dude thats ODing on the alcohol. Either (s)he just failed a test or (s)he just can't have a good without "the sauce" running through his/her body. They make for a nice lil side show to whatever is going on ...shit they a walking conversation piece when u trying to talk to a special lady.

The ABDC reject. Iunno what it is. but it seems that in every party there is a group huddled up in the middle of the dance floor and they watching some dude (most likely) pop lock drop and dop it lol doing all that fancy dancing isht. looking like an extra in a Missy Elliot video lol I'm not hating..if u got it use it sheeeeeeeiiiit!

The dude/chick no one wanna be seen wit.

The pot heads in a separate room foggin it up looking like a hallucinogenic sauna. talking about politics and religion and philosphy...heart to hearts if they cool like that lol.

the couple making out in the corner/middle of the dancefloor

Life of a Party: the loud ass dude/chick whos havin a convo with the whole house. Sometimes its the Alckie lol

The fashionably late dude who everybody wants to see.

Anyway... I luv this clip cause that exchange between chill and Martin Lawrence's character is funny as shit to me lol.

but here ya go...this is the clip i originally wanna drop

Well...if you dont know or don't care There is a documentary out chronicling the life of Mike Tyson. Ever since i was able to comprehend sports and fighting this nigga has been a person of interest. I wasn't well versed in the boxing world but I was always rooting for Mike. Whether he's knocking some asshole out or marrying golddiggers i would root for the nigga. He looks like a maniac but that was who he was, or so I thought. This movie was an eye opener, ive seen a couple tid bits about the nigga but to hear it from his mouth makes it real. I feel sorry for the dude, he wasn't ready for the places his talent took him. He stepped beyond his station. When his manager died its like he was vulnerable to the wolves, he lost focus, he dabbled in debauchery, he hooked up with Don King (who should be shot). His career, all his money went in a freefall, just like that!! One day you the Undisputed Champ and the next you in jail or you bankrupt. His story is an inspiration but for the wrong reasons, people should see this and not do what Tyson did. I feel like i can relate to him, the way he grew up and all. I was soft spoken, timid, always fighting for some shit, whether it would be for respect or for stupid shit. He just had a way out and reversed it he was a fat ass nerd ass nigga and he was a machine by 18. Maybe it ruined him, cuz like he said that shit has an affect on you. I feel like i relate to niggas like Tyson and Tupac (niggas that aint good for people, for themselves, volatile) its just that i don't have the medium and the freedom to bring it all out, it comes out though, little by little. I dont have the strength to run with it and im cool with that cuz opening that would be like opening a can of dogfood (smells real bad). Ima probably go boxing tommorow, i dont have any gloves but i do have a pair of wraps, i got into it about a year ago, i stopped during the summer though but i feel like taking some aggression out....

hmmm we should go into my aggression

Hmm, slumdog millionaire huh?
I got nothing against Indian people or their practices but this some bullshit. I didn't watch the Oscars this year and because of that i missed out on heath ledger gettin the Oscar for best supporting actor. I'm all for good movies getting recognized but year after year some wack looking movie sweeps every movie out of the water. This year was about some Indian kid in a game show. How come the award giving academy is interested in every story but the black ones. Penelope Cruz won for best supporting actress for some Spanish shit. I wouldn't be surprised if one black movie was nominated for an award; and that is a damn shame in "post-racial America". Its crazy that the wire still isn't being recognized in the mainstream media. It shows black people in all walks of life. The content isn't for the kids but what they did with that series warrants some recognition, on the real tho
The fault isn't just on the Academy though. The fact that some black movies aren't gettin play is based on mad shit (factors).