Soft??
Hmmmm? Iunno WTF prompted this description of me but that's what Js called me.
Now she didn't mean it like on some dainty shit bacically she could have used the word laid back or "not aggressive" (I'm sooo aggresive) ask squirts, ask JuJu, ask my X so naturally I feel a bit misrepresented. Lol she stay callin me a pushover like lol anyway. I know im not a rah rah nigga if im talking to you why does everyone in the room has to hear it like lol. This aint about speaking volume though, my demeanor is very....baseline. very chill I don't get a rise out of anything nowadays, some people were fighting over an article of clothing today and i barely bat an eye. Its almost as if im slow i can imagine but im aware I just don't let it affect me. Its a misrepresentation so ima treat it as that...she'll see soon enough.
Back when we were first talking to each other I wasn't all gung ho bout my pursuing her cause she was in a tender place. She was still hurting from her last ship and I understood that, backing up wasn't really anything, i wasn't that deep in. I guess it became a way of defending myself from possible...pain maybe.
But in no way am I soft! Although she didn't mean it in that way i took it that way n she lit a fire under my ass. So I'm bout to take measures to make sure I see hers.. doggystyle
and make her mine in the process lol. Pz
Iite next day flow.
Donnie's log
Got stuck in ice right on Js' block (thank gawd) after a bunch of revving n reversing her mom came up on me kinda scaring me and she couldn't get me out, then her pops came through and got me out! So that was interesting. Good thing I met them already. Ass hole who can't control his whip would have made for a bad first impression lol.
So then she comes out after all that n by this point I already know I'm kissing her. My motivation? I made her a gift and shit i deserve that shit. The soft shit didnt help either at least it lets me know that she's annoyed with the tempo of things too so imna move foward as normal with the best of intentions of course. No deception, cards facing the sky...
Anyway
It's just so damn cold and I'm freezing like a muhhg in my work clothes and sweater/jacket. If it wasnt for the iced out block I would have been warm up in her crib i didn't wanna outright park on the ice so that i get stuck again so moms suggested i borrowed a neighbors driveway but i couldn't just abandon the car just in case so i waited for homegirl outside. I wasn't inconvenienced by the situation I get the privacy i need to comfortably make my move. so we talk n shit I give her the tape i made, she reads the card. She hugs me n and I Kiss her on the cheek, she reciprocates as shes done lately. we joking on each other like "ohhh u got stuck", "ohh look at u in ur sweats" all types of LOL's going around then she comes through with that pushover isht again
I let her know that I'm in fact taking It easy on her. I elaborated, she calls me sweet after some smooth delivery that then prompts me to inquire about how sweet she was.... I then lay one on her and let her know how sweet she was. she aight in the kissing department but first kisses don't tell the whole story n i knew this so that didn't stop me from cheesing and warming up n the iunno 20-30 degree night with concrete coated in ice. . like i said u can never judge kisser by their first kiss, nerves and uncertainty cloud the kiss so to speak. Hopefully she believes in the same thing cuz as we were making out I then proceeded to grab her ass.
:-/
Yeah i know...
It was by accident though.
She was wearing this 3/4 coat all bundled up and I couldn't tell ass from waist specially when my eyes closed. It's aight tho, I always fuck up a first kiss type situation. LoL
hmmm makes for an interesting blog post.
In related news...Me and squirts are officially done fucking . Weird shit. I was about to tell her that we couldn't eff around anymore but by the time i got home her sleepy ass was dormant. Anyway I'm at work and i hit her up during my boring 12 hour shift. She doesnt respond. then i get one of these...
Yea, i have to tell you something.
Here I am in the fucking cologne kiosk about to fall the fuck out. like i'm on some wtf type shit. This chick bout to tell me she's preggo. Now my bare penis have never felt the environment that is the vagine (va-gene) so my white kids are always 99.something percent away from the eggs/tubes. I start to panic and i send her a
"wha?"
and here goes the long wait... im outside n shit pacing.
and then she responds with a...
"I can't have sex wit you anymore"
Im like !!! i cheeesing like a mothafucka im relieved and the fact that i won't get sex x times a week for the time being doesn't really register. I shoot back
Wha? say word lol i was about to tell u the same thing
I like my friend the one whos locked up, hes getting out soon and i always liked him and i knew nothing was ever gonna happen with me and you. Wby?
ohh so u goin for the locked up dude, no doubt.
we said we gon be friends but after she fucks that dude who's coming home from jail ain't no way i'm touching her, real fucking talk.
We split amicably though..like it always goes.
Sent from my iPod
"keep the public undisciplined and ignorant. keep the public confused, keep em distracted with matters of NO IMPORTANCE; keep em diverted from real social issues."
I see that shit running rampant these days all these celebrity blogs, reality tv shows, vh1,TMZ, MTO even ESPN. I remember the days when rumors was just rumors and things needed to be proved before they were even considered truth. Now speculation is enough everyone is too busy worried about the Rihannas, T.O.'s and Kanyes of the world, well... not worried but the attention they're getting is not warranted. The shit that was being kept in the tabloids are now everywhere and they are now called journalism which then takes away from the health insurance issue, the iraq issue n whatnot.
lol "entertainment kept at the 6th grade level. jay Z makin music for 13 year olds."
Truthful shit, Laffy Taffy, Halle Berry, Soulja Boy's discography, all these simple ass songs being pushed by the media, music industry and whatnot; and the masses gobble it up like thanksgiving dinner further enforcing its spins in the airwaves. Its not only the simple songs its the "formulaic" songs (ie BS w/a hook) too that stay getting airplay while anything with a hint of a brain gets pushed on the back burner.
earrings, tight pants, skinny jeans are trends by design?!??
Of course its by design, males were wearing pink a couple of years ago are they not. Now everybody wanna front like they weren't part of the Salmon Movement; I wonder how everybody gonna act in a couple of years when the skinny jeans thing fades out. Mad people gonna need a spatula to pick their faces up off the ground. Something so blatantly Femme has actually gotten play for a minute now. It makes me think of that boondock episode when Riley was wearing ganstalicious' (an openly gay rapper's) clothing line
lol i think thats a bra or somthing
Now the whole blood sacrifice thing is a bit left. That's overdoing it although the evidence is there because these things DID happen, Alliyahs been dead for like 8years now. for all i know that evidence is circumstantial at best; it does make one wonder though. Shit this whole rant my Prof Mcgriff makes me wonder..hence the post
Creativity is a mental and social process involving the generation of new ideas or concepts, or new associations of the creative mind between existing ideas or concepts. Creativity is fueled by the process of either conscious or unconscious insight. An alternative conception of creativeness is that it is simply the act of making something new.
I reme
mber back in the day being creative came from a pure place; like being creative was for your sake, so that you don't have to live in a banal, insipid Cases and Points.
Now we got the hair game getting played out. Iunno I thought Cassie was crazy for ge
When did Creativity and Individuality and Daring to be Different mean augmenting someone else's stylo? Are we as a people that limited when it comes to imagination that we deem copying others OK? Shouldn't one be embarrassed that you got caught trying to look like someone else? how do you even look at the other person you trying to emulate? Its basically pathetic and I cant get down with that..
IIte yo, This is Lucky, cheesy name but that is what he responds to (sometimes). As i said previously he is our new addition. I'm don't know his age or his Breed (that is a bit cloudy, I'm thinking some type of terrier, LOL) but yeah, homeboy is OD ENERGETIC!! Its like he one of those squirrels on the street, shit he looks like one! I say this cuz he OD hairy i think its a bit much for his size and breed (maybe). He was/is a street dog, His previous owners/finders had no room for him so yesterday morning they called moms and asked her to take him in, she then came and asked us (my brother and I) and of course we were happy to take him in.
Now, surprisingly my mother was veryy OK with the idea of having a dog, I remember i told her i was gettin a Rottie and she was like "nooo, the house is too small!"; "noo I'm scared of dogs!!"; "nooo!! he may push grandma down the stairs when she visits!!" Now all of a sudden we get shorty over here and she kissin up on him lolol, what a effin world [ i'm still gettin a Rottie/doberman tho 8-) ]. Anyway He didn't sleep last night but he didn't make much noise. I took him on a walk and yes he is one of those dogs who you cannot walk past if you walkin your own dog cuz Lucky does Buck!! He almost had an unleashed Labrador all up in his scrawny azz!! lol (he skinny).
Feeding him was a problem cuz he wouldn't eat, he'd just lick his food, nibble here and there but, nothing....now when it came to dinnertime (human dinnertime) and chicken was being cooked, homeboy ate his chicken up like he was in a commercial, real talk. As for shits and piddles, he don't do that in the house (as of yet) as soon as we are outside he does his business [he street! but he civilized...Ima nickname him slimm thugg]
Anyway I definitely babbled on enough, i just thought I'd record this day...
Oh yeah Pics...
Like i said.....John Stamos hairy!
Hopefully when we get the whip back we can take him to the ASPCA or a VET so he can get his shots ($$), a checkup ($$) and some info on the bugger, ohh and a gottdamned shape up ($$)
PZ
