COGNI.VOL...

Iite the titles of my last two blog titles can be a bit cryptic and obscure some background info can help.

Read this. London Bridge is Burning Down

an exerpt: "When I'm feeling someone, I'm feeling em but when I am turned off or i can't see myself with them anymore i douse our bridge in kerosene and i light a match. In one fell swoop a couple of paragraphs i can damage a relationship (in the general social sense of the word) to a point where it cannot be repaired. I just go into fuck it mode and say things or do things that blow it all the fuck up. As I grow I've been doing this more and more, especially if any hope is lost. I'm starting to feel that this is the case right now."

Now i'm not burning the bridge or nuking the relationship (general) because that will do nothing...Ima keep it there unmaintained for a bit and if it crumbles so be it.

Looks like I'm back down to earth cause I'm cold chillin, moving "on to the next one" (pardon the already tired cliche) Shit, or on to the next couple of ones even. I'm gonna admit, pursuing a relationship with this chick actually brought the level of my wanting such a thing down. In a way i was weakened. I don't have walls up like that anymore but i sure as hell dont do the isht i have been doing in terms of girl J.S. I'm "pooped" in that dept and yes that is pitiful lol its whatever though. Plenty of things to look forward to: the most prominent being awaiting the yay or nay for graduate school. Shiet and i gotta hit the fuccin GYM! 5 times a week fuck it!! how easy was that to write lol

PZ

ohh and thanx to yall who commented on the last post