Iiite the self gifts keep on rollin.
Happy Belated thanxgiving
a few of the things im thankful for...well one and more than ever its:
I'm very thankful for my fam right now cause they've been the most supportive they have ever been. I mean they have always supported me but that was in better times. Of course nothing is really wrong but they just push me and back me and look out for me and It's evident and clear when thanxgiving rolled around. I cant really think of anything besides health I would be thankful for. Family believed in me during this year of confusion and dissappointment. Things are looking up though cause i got a good score on the GRE's and im counting eggs before they hatch so hopefully im granted luck and I can get into gradschool this fall. Lemme stop i need to hit these applications first but iunno shits just looking UP for once instead of.. u know....middle lol. Progression is a state in which I am most comfortable and I haven't seen it all year since i graduated; but that was a January blog post soo.....
As we continue on:
J*davey my newest addition to my wall of Dimes <--- got some pipes on her. Her partner in crime Beau (the producer) I think his name is produces ear candy at a consistent pace. Not to go all IllRoots/2DopeBoys on you but check out their work for yourself: Beauty in the Distortion/ Land of the Lost.
I finally saw season 3 of the game and "Girl Melanie" is annoying as FUUUUUCK. She stay crying, and how come Derwin gave her that small ass ring for? rookie contracts man..
Ohh yeah i gots my belated Bday gift of a flatscreen TV yesterday (Black Friday) thats all i copped though..
PZ
Yooo remember this House Party..i was watching this yesterday and it it brought back mad memories lol. As im watching this im thinking... have i ever been to a house party as "naturally live" as this one.. ain't no alcohol in sight..no weed. I wonder if such a party can be pulled off today. It is od dance heavy though and thats certainly alive and well today, except slow songs, that seems to have died out a while ago, smh. But i dig the vibes in this movie man. No one is skulking (word?), mean muggin in a dark corner..shiet..there are lights on lol!!
I think this movie came out in like 1990 and it makes light of the shit i see in house parties back in MY hey day (last year lol). Reminisce with me lol
Alckies...theres always that dude thats ODing on the alcohol. Either (s)he just failed a test or (s)he just can't have a good without "the sauce" running through his/her body. They make for a nice lil side show to whatever is going on ...shit they a walking conversation piece when u trying to talk to a special lady.
The ABDC reject. Iunno what it is. but it seems that in every party there is a group huddled up in the middle of the dance floor and they watching some dude (most likely) pop lock drop and dop it lol doing all that fancy dancing isht. looking like an extra in a Missy Elliot video lol I'm not hating..if u got it use it sheeeeeeeiiiit!
The dude/chick no one wanna be seen wit.
The pot heads in a separate room foggin it up looking like a hallucinogenic sauna. talking about politics and religion and philosphy...heart to hearts if they cool like that lol.
the couple making out in the corner/middle of the dancefloor
Life of a Party: the loud ass dude/chick whos havin a convo with the whole house. Sometimes its the Alckie lol
The fashionably late dude who everybody wants to see.
Anyway... I luv this clip cause that exchange between chill and Martin Lawrence's character is funny as shit to me lol.
but here ya go...this is the clip i originally wanna drop
Yeap i decided to (like my two fav Bloggers Reese n Lalaliybean) to do this lil random survey they got going. So here we go...
:1: MY EX- Is probably the only black guyanese chick in Beijing, she had some long ass nipples.
:2: MAYBE I SHOULD- studying
:3: I LOVE- women, money, that commercial for that videogame starring Jack Black (Welcome to hell yeah! rated M for Mature!) breasts. being clean shaven. MUSIC!!
:4: PEOPLE WOULD SAY THAT I'M- capricious, weird, quiet, a horndog, handsome
:5: I DON'T UNDERSTAND- why politics comes before the most basic of needs.. (health, a clean world, equal rights) fuck politics and the man
:6: WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING- Its usually because of a text from a random somebody who wakes up earlier than i.
:7: I LOST- umm my...nail clippers.
:8: LIFE IS FULL OF- crazy sudden alternations of boring and exciting..
:9: MY PAST IS- unique...
:10: I GET ANNOYED WHEN- when people annoy me. when someone lies. when someone is closeminded and OD traditional. When one wears skinny jeans and overtly follows trends to the letter just to get attention. when someone od's on tatts n piercings...ok maybe not the last one.
:11: PARTIES ARE- the best when alcohol is involved and everyone is drunk and start doing random stuff like breaking out into song and jumping off of things. College was the shit...
:12: I WISH- I was exempt from ever working as a mandate from God. and (s)he would look out for me and grant me wishes!
:13: DOGS- are the shit...the bigger the better. Lucky is the exception.
:14: CATS- in general will stay clear of Lucky after I let him kill that fat golden one next door.
:15: TOMORROW- I work..
:16: I HAVE LOW TOLERANCE- for annoying people and for alcohol (since I graduated)
:17: IF I HAD A MILLION DOLLARS- I'd invest in a chain of strip clubs and porn. I'd give some to moms and I'd see the world.
:18: I'M TOTALLY TERRIFIED: of being solo for the rest of my life. Birds (yeesh) and being a bum
Yeah looks like Ima be sending this money talks DVD back, smh. At least cooley high doesn't skip smh some times shit with the used tag...smh it's risky lemme just say that.
Any way I ain't done shit tnite. Nothin social at least well ibwas on the phone for an hour wit Jbird. Jbird just a nickname shit lemme just say JS. she is by no means a bird lol don't get it tangled&twisted Don don't fucc wit birds or rats unless they profound and celibate... And willing to break that wi me lol.
anyway js is a chick I met from work I talked about her before. That's another post though.
Some noteabke shit from today
Yo I woke up this morning to a story about how my cousin got into it with his mom.
He is 12...uhhh 13 years old.
I can't say it's suprising. Shit I was still in my post sleep state after moms told me. We were all a witness to him being spoiled by his mom and time and time Again I would say either aloud or to myself that his spoiled ass would backfire on her. Smh low and behold 13 years later it's apparent that's she payin for it. While he was here I noticed he has a tendencyto talk shit while he gettin scolded. And his mom wud get so pissed that she smacked him upside the dome or hit him with a shoe on some od shit. I mean I'm no softie but using a weapon is a nono always has been in my book! The only allowable foreign object when it comes to a parent child disciplinary relationship is a belt. Even the buckle is od even though statistics show that more and more parents are using that part on they childs hindparts nowadays lol (jk). When i was younger i remember staying over this chicks house (her moms was my sitter) and she would get her ass WHIPPED. I remember her mom hitting her with an umbrella n shit. it was traumatic as hell to see. In this day and age where does one draw the line between disipline and abuse? not to say that my aunt is abusing my cousin cuz that certainly is not the case, she just doing extra to get through to him even though its not working. I think the only reason he lashed back at my aunt the way he did was behind some od shit like that. There comes a point where one gets tired of gettin hit with the belt. my last year of getting whuppings (14-15 years) I faked the pain. Shit or I wouldn't even yell even tho that made it kinda worse lol!
Anyway my mom wants me to talk to my cous n tell him what's good. In my groggy state i replied: "where the fucc is his father!" ( I ain't say fuck) lol but yeah why me? Then I realized that maybe it is a good idea since i know what i know (above..conflict between a growing boy and his traditional disciplinary mom). I'll see where his heads at soon enough.
In other news moms talked my pops today smh I hate when she initiates contact with this nigga. Anyway... That's another long ass post too so I owe y'all .... I'm goin to sleep it 3 in the mornin.... I Need some pooms (pussy)...
...ok I owe y'all three posts
PZ
Yo the 70's look like they were mad fun. Im watchin some random movie on encore drama right now and its LACED with a 70's type theme. I dunno the name of the flick but I cut into a very psychedelic ass scene with a alotta white folk dancing in a medium sized room with a live band playing. People swinging their hair, dancing n shit, naked bishes with bright facepaint all over their naked body (bodypaint). It looks like a crazy ass vibe and i kinda wished i lived to experience it.
In my opinion everything worth trying nowadays popped off in the 70's. My old boss from back in the day when i was working In DC 37 in NYC would tell me how it was like living through the 70's. As he would tell me and the other intern these stories there was a consistent smile throughout. It almost seemed like he felt euphoric reliving his past adventures. As i saw this I knew homeboy used to get busy back in the day. He would tell us how everything was so cheap back then as opposed to now. Well we were talkin about herb but i deduced that everything was cheaper back then also lol.
He told us about the wild ass parties he attended. Now at that point I've already had a 1 year bid in University at Albany under my belt so I done my share of partying at that point in my life. Even though that was the case i felt like a 12 year old learning about what u can do when ur 17/18 lol cause what the people who were of age (or slightly under) at that time have is so unique! That whole time period is synonymous with good times and crazy experimentation (in general). He did let us know that it wasn't all fun and games though. I mean he was in the thick of the black power movement so it wasn't all gravy especially for black folk OBVIII lol
I've always felt like i possessed an old soul and maybe thats why I'm interested in the time period. Maybe because everything was so new to people and they dabbled. A whole generation of people who got first dibs all these drugs and sounds and shit in their rawest most purest form. Not only all that but lines were clearly drawn. either you were a devout hippie, an avid feminist, an avid environmentalist, you were fervently protesting for something or you were a witness to some of the best music of all time (James Brown, Jimi Hendrix, Disco {i guess}....etc, etc, etc)
Bottom line amid an economic downturn people came together and they obviously got shit done or just had a great time with people with the same motivations as them lol. Iunno i'd love to go back in time with like 300 bucks for like a week and have the craziest time. Not that i don't appreciate our time...as 80's babies our times are clearly defined also and i definitely appreciate that. I don't know how it was being a teen in the 80s but being a kid in the 90s was the shit also so u take what u got feel me...what am i sayin although the 2000's aint like the 90's, 80's or 70's it is an experience to live through it. As we move forward the more we have to look back to and appreciate.
PZ
I Got this from girl Reese's blog aka one of my fav blogs out right now.
Seemed fun to do so I did...need some evidence keep reading
My name is Don and I am an old soul wearing a funny hat. I like to Live life and have fun doin it and I also Love me some Dcups on a slightly thick chick . I have one brother and i think 1/2 a sister.
I wish that i was locked in a room with nicki minaj and jada fire and maaad ciroc vodka and that I have an immunity to every disease possible (so far so good). In order for me to survive I need my itouch, food and women. I hate annoying ass muhfuckas and stuck up women. I have no middle name. People most likely think i got a wierd sense of humor or just weird lol but im just as weird as they are or that they are right. I need to eat everyday. I know how to draw and play the piano, .
I need to get back to my sophmore year workout ethic. I don't like it when people use the word hater alot. I have an abundance of clothes, i need to make a trip to the salvation army. When I am bored I like to fuck around on my Ipod touch, watch pornos and read blogs. By the end of the day all I want is to be tired from hittin this Gym and learn me some math. In 10 years I want to have an apartment in a city, a well traveled life, and a wife (maybe). I guess you can say I'm that dude.
Supposedly this movie [The Lovely Bones-IMDB] is about this girl who gets shot in Philadelphia (sounds like a non fictional tale but hold ya skirts) So homegirl gets shot in Suburban Philadelphia; instead of the popular belief that we go to heaven or hell or some really deep ass hole. She floats around the living as a ghost i guess and watches her family. ooooh.. i digress it appears shes watching her fam and her killer from heaven ,my bad, anyway The movie itself has a good premise but its not the type of movie that interests me; either a movie has to have to have some killing/violence; some profound message or some black people. This movie seems to have neither but again great premise!
It kinda plays to my idea of what death is like. Now, i believe in God but if I said "my spirit flies to heaven after i die" you wouldn't sense much conviction in my voice. Its a nice idea to have but being that we have cells n shit and that science explains everything its quite possible that we just get.. (iunno) deleted and I'm not talking about "stored in the Recycle Bin deleted" im talking "Recycle Bin, left click, erase this shit off my computer deleted" Finality, ultimate closure, the end.
Sad but thats what i think and although its scary i'm at peace with it, Ive been at peace with it. Everyone has to go through it and everyone went through puberty right!?? That wasnt that bad...
UMM...I do hope for the best though. Sometimes back in the day when I'm at church or in a funeral or something I often picture (cuz im probably bored). A ghost (of the deceased) watching everyone watching the eulogy/funeral. They watching everyone cry for them and shit and i think to myself it must feel nice to see everyone together crying for you... i think. Part of me wants death to be that way. You die then your spirit walks around the earth invisible to all living things. Hmm now that i think about it almost like that Patrick Swayze movie, but since this is real life you cant touch shit or push people in front of cars...although that would explain all the unfortunate shit that happens to people. But yea, thats what i'd want death to be like, you just stay and watch ya family go on throughout their lives without you...it would probably be painful but at least it ain't cancer or a bullet or a train.
Oh yeah Ghost, casper umm that resse witherspoon movie...i guess the premise aint all that original... Shocking...not
. Yo people slay the isht outta me. My friend stay getting harassed by this guy. He's leaving all types of crazy voice mails in her phone and he really sounds like a mental case. Why do people do this, don't they know they are fucking up your chances of getting the girl/guy even more by acting a fool in someones voice mail. Voice mails are forever (well, as long as the person saves it on their phone) and your taped rant can be played in front of anyone whenever the receiver feels like it, not a smart move believe me i know (drunk dials are a bitch). Women do the same thing, matter of fact I wouldn't be surprised if it's done more by women because a man going nuts on account of someone not wanting them is "womanly" IMO. When a woman is burned (fig.) by a man she lets everybody know. Status messages reflect their angst and it almost always shows in their attitude also. They get mad and condemn all men as dogs and all that; you got your "niggas aint shits" or my personal favorite "ima turn lesbian" lol (sure you will ). Then a day comes when they find the one who's different then it repeats all over again. In my experience I've learned that getting mad or tight over someone you just met just makes you look like a needy fool. It shows weakness and desperation, if someone doesn't want you just move on chances are you're in the vicinity of another single person who fits your parameters or who's willing to be with you. Yeah the possibilities were there but if it aint happenin it aint happenin...move on. Instead of being all imbalanced and iracible keep your head and stay open for opportunities that can arise, you'll look like a better person for it, now if only everyone else knew this shit...
Damn my thumb hurts like a motha fucka
Well i met someone new, she seems cool and we seem to be hittin it off so we'll see how that goes.
- Sweet, nice body, personality is the bomb and no kids WHATWHAT! lol
Still don't have a fucking job, shit is wack.
- its been like six months is Philadelphia that fuckin dry! I can't stand being unemployed and being here is fuckin killin a nigga. (ventilation)
- winging it for the GRE didn't work as well as i hoped. I'm shooting for a specific score and ima need some aid.
- then again the father of the child is a fucking moron and he's bound for a wake-up call in like 5 minutes.
Yo my knee is acting up again...ok lol now im writing about anything no matter how banal it is! im gonna stop now lol
Pieces
Its 4:30 Am and i think im gonna sleep. I just wanna write some thoughts on here before i lay out.
X- Incubus is the shit. The album Make Yourself is tight.
X- it was a confusing weekend, i have decided on what grad school program i wanna partake in though, Health Administration.
X- Communications is a close second.
X- Business admin may be too much for me. Math is not my strong suit and im not payin $22,000 to fail out. Yeah its negative to think that way but i'm real, math sucks!!!! Fuck math fo real though, Pythagoras can suck a dick, real talk!
0- I got a busy ass week ahead of me. I got my road test on thursday and two interviews this week. I hope to get both of em but im gonna start with one job. Its not like im raising kids, one job should do me lovely. The highest paying one is up first but its like 1 hour and 30 minutes away from the crib. Its outside of philly so that could be a plus, but who knows what's outside oh philadelphia. I get a negative vibe being out here. Its whatever though, i need me some bucks. Warehouse management or whatever position First Investors Corp is offering.
Only time and greenbacks will tell, but if i can have a choice id wanna work in the city, take the train, see people.
Im tired....
