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Yo when's the last time I Fu*ked a broad???


I think it was month ago. Maybe more lol i try not to fuck and write but shit why not last time I had sex was fuckin traumatic!! No fuckin joke.

See

Umm I've never been with a chick "right after" (aka during) her period. And umm let's just say I freaked out a lil. Now I have worked around these things before. No sex for a week ain't so bad cuz anticipation makes the next sesxion so much betta besides a week break ain't a bad idea since I need it at least twice a day ( ohh yeah).

Well this chick obviously needed it too cuz she let me dip me hotdog into her BBQ sauce. Ok part of it is my fault cuz I was "postponed" (she said no) earlier in the week so I needed the poom that night so I start pushing her buttons and boom I got to beat. Now I'm hittin it doggy n everything and everything all well n good when I. Nut and pull out

***Whoa..don't get I twisted I used a condom my dickskin has never felt the inside of a woman.***

remember my worst fear..

So when I pull out I look at my dick and instead of lookin at it with content and thinking of a job well done I look at it with horror and I swear I turned light skinned for a second. There was blood all over DMV (da main vein). My mind starts racin and I moved on over to her bathroom where i proceed to waste all her toilet paper wiping her blood off my pubes n isht. I was freeeeakin out and I wore a fuccin condom!! ( there was some dick remainder left uncovered)
Anyway, sexually I was a done dizzy for at leasta week that shit killled my sex drive for a minute I even stopped hollering at chix period until I met shorty from work which wasn't long after the umm bloodwork.

I may have oded but as a nigga who's deathly afraid of catching anything that may render my dick useless Id say I publicly kept my cool. Shit i remember doing at least 70mph driving back home so I can take a (chemical)shower.

So anyway during my sexual hiatus I kinda sorta practiced more than usual on jerking/jackin/wanking/wacking off. So much so that I attempted abstaining from doing it. I lasted a week (5days) lol. So yeah it's about time I come off this dryspell but I'm in no rush. Basically am celibate till I get a girl (or a potential) anyway so unless that happen my dick gonn be dryer than a column in ancient Egypt.
Shit basically ive been chilling mainly my focus is chilling,working ,studying and trying to get another legit job in my field. If it wasn't for JS I wouldn't be talking to nobody. Now when it comes to this chick i find myself...concerned a lil (right now). I've mentioned her before here and here. We've been talking on the phone every night and shooting each other lil wall posts on facebook at a rate Ive never been a part of and all that is well and good; but these last couple of days though I guess I made it over that arc like... I've never liked her more than i do now. Now that was kinda what I set out to do but before I naturally kept it easy, took it slow (for once)...gave her her space (cuz she needed it) now as i got to know her more I'm feeling her more than ever, this getting to know someone concept is a trip lol


I feel that i shouldn't show that too much though cause I've been told that im an aggressive dude lol specially when it comes to sex/relationships....i just call it Probity/Candor/Honesty. I want what i want when i want and imna do what i can to attain it even if it means putting all the cards on the table facing up.

but anyway Ima keep it cool cuz she scared of everything lol



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