Showing posts with label secrets. Show all posts
Showing posts with label secrets. Show all posts
Speaking of pregnant people i think some chick i used to fuck with is pregnant, i may be assuming but I too have an intuition (ladies). Ohhh no way its mine so she just came up cuz she called me the other day trying to get it if she was preggers i dont think she woulda wanted to fuck specially since the due date is in September (allegedly) So to digress, i don't think she's pregnant.-
So how wrong was I. Thats optimism for ya. Homegirl is in fact pregnant. I texted her out the blue with a "Hey, how are you feeling"
Ny: "fine, u"
Me: "im good, i was just asking since you pregnant and all"
Ny: " you found out thru Myspace" (how sad)
Me: "yeah, and im tight you aint tell me"...blah blah blah
Ny: I didnt know until 2 weeks ago that IM 7 MONTHS PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!
My Reaction ---->
i kid u not
Yo is that shit even possible, now im not OBGYN and i havent really been around a pregnant lady. well i have but at that point i wasnt even aware such a thing called vagina existed. But im sure that certain things have to happen when you pregnant. Morning sickness, enlarged uterus lol and the like. How do you not know that you've been pregnant for 7 months. She should be on the next season of " i didnt know i was pregnant" on TLC. She was about 2 months away from having a kid on the street or sumthin.
Anyway im skeptical but it doesn't matter cuz all that means is that my dry spell has extended somewhat otherwise I don't care. Now this bish has 4 kids and she dolo. Its crazy but i understand...the way she rides a dick made it wholly understandable, she gets doown! She almost had my kid by accident. Iunno for some reason I wasnt having refractory periods (dead dick after u cum) so I kept going and my condom was so filled w/ cum that it slipped up inside her consequentially she got preggers and i talked my ass out of it by emploring for an abortion. She didn't believe in it but it worked, she got it done and I was off the hook. Someone wasnt so persuasive though.... It sucks but i soo did not want a child with her. Granted my decision to use Iron Dick to rock her world was a bad idea but I cant be connected to a woman with three other kids in that way. Cold? maybe but damn it was an accident in the purest sense of the word, the fuck was I to do??? I did what was necessary to me and I probably would do it again.
....Sad but true
For as long as i can remember I've always been a private person. I don't know when i started to become such a person but i have no qualms about labeling myself as one. It is what it is. Maybe i like the freedom of being a present day nigga (dude without a past). By nature I like keeping to myself i dont like sharing shit about me.
Heres my mental about the whole thing::
Everything is a implied secret until brought into question by whoever asks a question, then I look at the relationship i have with whoever and depending on that and my intentions with whoever i will tell them whatever it is i was previously keeping.
If its about me its automatically kept under wraps; lol ( i was born for the FBI); i dont even mix and match people. friends from home and college friends never meet..everyone is sectioned off naturally. its really wierd writing this:
- Becasue it sounds OD wierd
- Because im writing this shit actually down, tellin why i keep secrets
Anyway its in my nature to keep to myself i cant help it. Sometimes it gets in the way though especially with tellin the ladies about who they are dealing with. I generally open up to em because the goal is to get them comfortable around me so i can do whatever (Fuck em or Wife em). speaking of ladies I tend to open up to girls; no man alive knows what three or four girls know when it comes to me. A.J,T.G,T.V,N.B shouts to em cuz without them no one would have a clue bout me.
Ladies generally care more i feel that they pry more also leading me to tell em more shit. No nigga knows about me because ive been burned in the past by telling dudes about me and they've used it against me, specially during grade school. Besides other niggas have more potential to be enemies than any female so i just let them get the surface me. Thats why i generally have no best friend whos a male cuz deep down inside i dont trust them with the inner workings of myself. I don't see it changing any time soon and that may be a problem in anyone elses eyes; i'll admit that but to me its just my way of surviving. Maybe i should just stop worrying about what other muthafuckas think and just do me. Yes, but i do me anyway i just dont have to explain it to anyone unless i want to ( i have the solutions and the rebuttals; my brain at war). Thats probably how its gonna be for the rest of my life and im good.
