Soft??
Hmmmm? Iunno WTF prompted this description of me but that's what Js called me.
Now she didn't mean it like on some dainty shit bacically she could have used the word laid back or "not aggressive" (I'm sooo aggresive) ask squirts, ask JuJu, ask my X so naturally I feel a bit misrepresented. Lol she stay callin me a pushover like lol anyway. I know im not a rah rah nigga if im talking to you why does everyone in the room has to hear it like lol. This aint about speaking volume though, my demeanor is very....baseline. very chill I don't get a rise out of anything nowadays, some people were fighting over an article of clothing today and i barely bat an eye. Its almost as if im slow i can imagine but im aware I just don't let it affect me. Its a misrepresentation so ima treat it as that...she'll see soon enough.
Back when we were first talking to each other I wasn't all gung ho bout my pursuing her cause she was in a tender place. She was still hurting from her last ship and I understood that, backing up wasn't really anything, i wasn't that deep in. I guess it became a way of defending myself from possible...pain maybe.
But in no way am I soft! Although she didn't mean it in that way i took it that way n she lit a fire under my ass. So I'm bout to take measures to make sure I see hers.. doggystyle
and make her mine in the process lol. Pz
Iite next day flow.
Donnie's log
Got stuck in ice right on Js' block (thank gawd) after a bunch of revving n reversing her mom came up on me kinda scaring me and she couldn't get me out, then her pops came through and got me out! So that was interesting. Good thing I met them already. Ass hole who can't control his whip would have made for a bad first impression lol.
So then she comes out after all that n by this point I already know I'm kissing her. My motivation? I made her a gift and shit i deserve that shit. The soft shit didnt help either at least it lets me know that she's annoyed with the tempo of things too so imna move foward as normal with the best of intentions of course. No deception, cards facing the sky...
Anyway
It's just so damn cold and I'm freezing like a muhhg in my work clothes and sweater/jacket. If it wasnt for the iced out block I would have been warm up in her crib i didn't wanna outright park on the ice so that i get stuck again so moms suggested i borrowed a neighbors driveway but i couldn't just abandon the car just in case so i waited for homegirl outside. I wasn't inconvenienced by the situation I get the privacy i need to comfortably make my move. so we talk n shit I give her the tape i made, she reads the card. She hugs me n and I Kiss her on the cheek, she reciprocates as shes done lately. we joking on each other like "ohhh u got stuck", "ohh look at u in ur sweats" all types of LOL's going around then she comes through with that pushover isht again
I let her know that I'm in fact taking It easy on her. I elaborated, she calls me sweet after some smooth delivery that then prompts me to inquire about how sweet she was.... I then lay one on her and let her know how sweet she was. she aight in the kissing department but first kisses don't tell the whole story n i knew this so that didn't stop me from cheesing and warming up n the iunno 20-30 degree night with concrete coated in ice. . like i said u can never judge kisser by their first kiss, nerves and uncertainty cloud the kiss so to speak. Hopefully she believes in the same thing cuz as we were making out I then proceeded to grab her ass.
:-/
Yeah i know...
It was by accident though.
She was wearing this 3/4 coat all bundled up and I couldn't tell ass from waist specially when my eyes closed. It's aight tho, I always fuck up a first kiss type situation. LoL
hmmm makes for an interesting blog post.
In related news...Me and squirts are officially done fucking . Weird shit. I was about to tell her that we couldn't eff around anymore but by the time i got home her sleepy ass was dormant. Anyway I'm at work and i hit her up during my boring 12 hour shift. She doesnt respond. then i get one of these...
Yea, i have to tell you something.
Here I am in the fucking cologne kiosk about to fall the fuck out. like i'm on some wtf type shit. This chick bout to tell me she's preggo. Now my bare penis have never felt the environment that is the vagine (va-gene) so my white kids are always 99.something percent away from the eggs/tubes. I start to panic and i send her a
"wha?"
and here goes the long wait... im outside n shit pacing.
and then she responds with a...
"I can't have sex wit you anymore"
Im like !!! i cheeesing like a mothafucka im relieved and the fact that i won't get sex x times a week for the time being doesn't really register. I shoot back
Wha? say word lol i was about to tell u the same thing
I like my friend the one whos locked up, hes getting out soon and i always liked him and i knew nothing was ever gonna happen with me and you. Wby?
ohh so u goin for the locked up dude, no doubt.
we said we gon be friends but after she fucks that dude who's coming home from jail ain't no way i'm touching her, real fucking talk.
We split amicably though..like it always goes.
Sent from my iPod
Asian persuasion shit
Yo I dunno what it is about this last week but I've been feeening for some Asian pu.. i mean women. Like yeah I've never been with an Asian girl before and that hasn't bothered me at all but i gotta admit im a bit intruiged. I personally only know... Umm wait, (!) I don't know any Asi.. oh wait that chick I've interned with over at the district council. She was mad cute but she wasn't stacking like shorty over here is.
<----Yummy.
I dunno what it is lately about Asian chicks that rev up my libido engine but.. shit... lemme stop lol. Part of it has to do with what makes them themselves. Their features so to speak Sexy eyes, skin color, they jet black hair. honestly I don't think they could take my dick or my sex but that's stereotyping.
:-X
Wow am I wrong for that? lemme take a right turn right quick.
I guess I want just want what i've never had. I'm not totally ignorant though, you don't see too many.... Asian ladies with black men. Mainly that's cause their families would disown them if they did. Now, of course everyone's situation is different and maybe most Asian parents today ain't like that or they would just simply disapprove. Disapprove def sounds like a safer word, less presumptive.
I feel like saying asian is the wrong term. I mean ain't Russia and India in Asia. How come they aren't Asians i just wanna be polycorrect.
Anyway
So maybe the fact that such a social phenomena exist adds to my infatuation with them ladies, weird but I think about that shit. I wonder if my sexual infatuation with Asian women is permanent. Is it? Or will it pass when I do taste that forbidden fruit. Hmm now that I think about it maybe its been in me for longer than i realize. When it comes to my ex the thing that literally caught my ear was her talkin mandarin with this Chinese(?) dude. This was before we had extensive words between each other. I was servin the customers at the on campus sbarros we were workin at and she was at the register there i was handin some fool a spaghetti and meatballs and all of a sudden a full blown Chinese Convo popped off between this black chick and a Chinese dude. Safe to say I was on notice immidiately lol. (any reason to talk bout the ex huh smh)
Anyway iunno somehow o think the answer as to why I'm feenin for an Asian chick is somewhere up there. I never checked the Asian section at spankwire before now I'm all up on it! Which further fucks up my head.
Usually I don't even think about things like that. I mean who vies to have sex with a member of every ethicity. Me myself I can't deliberately do that. I go with the flow when it comes to those type of things. I don't go round trying to talk to every woman that walks the street. I do know niggas that have... And they always late.
Wow major realization...maybe the fact that my ex was so rooted in Chinese culture has something to do with it. She's so rooted in their culture that shes currently in China studying abroad for a year. Even the way we fucked reminds me of how asian chix act in them pornos see she was a virgin and .....hmmm lemme stop. I'm just saying i got a good relationship with my subconscious its all about being honest with yaself i guess if you like me then you'd find out all types of shit about yourself as you write. As evidenced by my posts during the summer of 2008.
oh yeah i my jasc painshop pro free trial is done so i cant black and white my pics anymore. :-( there goes that Newspaper effect. not really think of this as the sunday edition of ya friendly neighborhood newspaper... PZ
