Damn....Heal the world just came on BET... last night when i first heard it...again i started tearing up cuz I remembered where I was the first hundred times I've heard this song. It wasn't the best of places but almost as if some type of repressed memory came back i started tearing up. Back in the day I would stay watching Michael Jackson's videos on TV. I don't know what exact day it was out of the year but it was very significant because they would show his videos and it seemed endless and they were all back to back ( almost like music videos were significant in the industry: FU MTV; his definitely were). His moves were significant, his decisions were very unorthodox but his mark on the world....legendary. I didn't see you in the spotlight lately MJ so im gonna admit I thought we forgot about you, but you will be missed.
The world as a collective has ever been a witness to such a catastrophic one casualty loss but we're feeling it now. (maybe Mother Theresa, princess Diana???)
I havent been the best fan but you did leave a mark on me...Rest in Peace Michael Joeseph Jackson....
PS (edit) my brother said some interesting shit "this may be the single most mourned death in history that rivals Jesus" Mother Theresa may come close
no way am i comparing the man to jesus im saying he was a world figure, everyone knew of him and are devastated by the loss. Im just saying aint no one crying about Farrah Fawcett in japan
think about it though a significant amount of people in this world from each country is mourning right now. Everywhere this man went he was loved. He was an entity that resonated with everyone....im just saying...
oh yeah PPS my fav song from him: another part of me
Oh, and if you're hurt (by the statement) get a bandaid
"I'm not here to tell you what to believe in. But I am here to say that if you don't know what you believe in, everything in your life will be confused. knowing what you believe lays a foundation for your life. then you can have ideas that follow. Things you are unwilling to compromise. if you decide you believe something everyday and everyday you believe something different then you will have nothing else to look forward to but chaos." -Sista Soulja
I finally read something that wasn't imposed on me by school. I haven't done such a thing since Goosbumps. The book I've read was Sista Soulja's The Coldest Winter Ever. A couple of female friends put me on to it and I finally gave in. Lemme stop, i was willing to read it ..shit i was bored as fuck and the synopsis Ju gave me piqued my interest so I moved foward. Don't expect any spoilers in here because the fact that a read a book isn't the focus of this entry. Just know that the book is fire and it opened my eyes to a certain type of female (their need for security, lust for material possessions, how they know what their doing [using what they got to get what they want]) .... now of course this isnt all females and i know that but if you think that a Winter Santiaga doesn't exist out there then you are in neverland....
Anyway.
The quote above is obviously from the book and I highlighted it so i wouldn't forget it. Im feeling this quote becuz its the truth. If we don't know what we believe in we are destined to live like a hobo in hollywood. If there is a foundation for anything we hope to accomplish in life its our mindset, our mental. So i thought what do I believe in, what morals/ standards/ beliefs I hold that makes me, me. Brace yourselves cuz im actually thinking about this shit.
umm lemme be like: 10 things i believe in
1. I believe in self preservation. selfish I know but I believe everyone will do whats neccesary for them at any given time and specially me included. I've learned a long time ago that worrying about everybody else will leave you unhappy and worse off.
2. Never take shit from anyone! because all in all they shit stinks just like yours and i just have too much pride to let a lesser being take control of me.
3. Shoot for the moon cuz even if you miss you gonna be with the stars. I love setting high goals for myself because i'll act accordingly and i'll never be disappointed. If I happen to be disappointed the reasons why and the answers will be more clear for you to try again.
4. Never start something with a potential serious someone on a lie because you never know how it will go. That whole relationship is based on a lie shit holds some water with me. I believe in being open or closed but I'll never lie.
5. The truth is a time saver. You ever been in a situation with somebody where they would continuously stack lies and then you eventually find out the truth and you look back at all the uneccessary time you've wasted. The truth is like removing a bandaid just rip the shit off and be done with it and most importantly move foward.
6. Know what you want ... thats basically the hardest thing to do but once you do know and you start taking steps towards getting or attaining whatever you wish it gets easier because you're moving foward.
7. Know what you deserve and don't settle. This isnt hard at all just do it.
8. I dont impose my vehement beliefs onto anyone else. That shit is just ignorant of other people congnitive abilities. You a republican (example) fine dont cast aspersions to the people who don't necessarily believe the same shit you do. Atheists/christians need to learn to shut the fuck up, and thats real.
9 The loudest man in the room is the weakest/A wise man doesnt argue with fools... now me being of a quiet nature i sorta fell into this. I knew how true this was before the words were put together in front of me. In the grand scheme of things (i stay looking at the big pic) somethings aren't worth arguing about... i digress, MOST THINGS arent worth arguing about. Especially in our ass society today. Who do you see more, a dumb loud person or a dumb quiet person? You know how they say its the quiet ones to watch out for or that the quiet ones are the real freaks....its not neccessarily fiction, marinate on that one
10 Realism > Idealism... shit rarely happens like its supposed to. If you crumble every time shit goes left then you gonna be sand by the time life is done with you. When life happens roll with it because tears won't do anything but release frustration (in some weird emotional way) instead of crying too much try to find a way to flip it. Life happens but it doesn't have a mind to plot against us with....we do, use it to your advantage
...pieces
I remember a couple of days ago when i was cruising facebook and i come across one of my friends status and it read
Cliff Johnson: remember when bush stole the election from gore....that's basically whats happening in iran right now....except that heads over there are wildin and not havin it! ... way more gangsta than AmericaI read this and I'm in awe at the truth that is displayed in this status message. I remember reading stories and sitting through history lessons that consisted of people fighting for all types of injustices, from civil rights to Rodney King. For a while any type of fuckery that came from a governmental institution would result in people whiling out in the streets. In this day and age we see all types of niggas getting killed by the police and we sit on our hands and complain at most, maybe we create a slogan and wear tshirts commemorating the victim. We've even witnessed Grant getting shot while handcuffed in SanFran and it didnt incite any type of riot. Quite frankly I'm dissapointed in our mob mentality right now. I mean maybe if we as inhabitants of a democratic country stood up and said: "wait a minute bruh! something aint right about this, do that shit over!!" we would be alot better off at this present time.
[im just sayin, no Bush, no war, no defecit, more american soldiers, more jobs, more money, more happy!!!!1!]
But whatever Rev Run said to keep going foward and don't look at the past for excuses
Maybe we're too individualistic to care about each other the way our parents/grandparents did in their time. Maybe we're satisfied with how things are going and we don't wanna fuck it up or bring any unpleasantries in the forefront of the rest of society. I'm Just saying: before i die i wanna see some shit go down, im talking a collective anger so strong that it would take a tornado to rival the damage it will do. I'll be watching while it goes down :-)
SyKe!!! I love @narchy and righting blatant wrongs
Dramatics - What you See is what you Get
I was watching "Listen Up" the Petey Greene story starring Don Cheadle and this was one of the songs played throughout the song. I've watched it before and the song moved me .... So i've YouTubed it and acquired their hits, I must have played this song at least 12 songs and its only 1:36 PM.
So yeah this song is definitely stuck in my head ....peep it
Me and moms have an understanding, we understand each others position so well that we are almost always on the same page. She's a single mom so I do my best to keep my life as clean as possible so that she doesn't have any extra curricular child rearing to do. Now me being me I could only do my part, my brother has had his things goin on and she had to deal with that but she still got off easy. Niggas is killin, stealing, out in the streets all day doin all types of dirt and me being me I strayed from that path as best as i could but i've slipped once or twice....naturally.
Today she came up to me and thanked me for being this perfect angel, she basically called me the perfect offspring. I don't know if she said the same thing to my brother but the way it sounded it probably wasnt so....
Me being the "perfect offspring" I thanked her and in turn told her about my trip to kensington and how i appreciate her and everything, further solidifying my place in her head.
you get the idea...
Things arent always as they seem
Thank God cuz hearts arent as strong as they used to be.....
Man shit is fucked up in the world yo.
June 7th will be a year (in theory cuz i went back to NY last August) that my familia and I has been inhabitants of Philadelphia. Although I'm still not thrilled I'm here so what am i gonna do... I ching, shit happens, roll with it. I gonna get out of here when its time best believe!
---I remember last year My last night out with my friends I got soo fuckin drunk,. scoopin chix left and right dancing and all that. We return home n shit and I'm so drunk out my ass that i slept on the futon (im mad we never brought that with us to Philly, it was still new!!) . I wake up that morning, i eat breakfast, shower, dressed moved a few things to the truck and eventually its time for us to leave. Everyone is getting situated, they gettin ready to go and i lock the door for the last time and put the keys in the mailbox. As i head to the car i start to gag n shit so i throw some of the bags i was carrying in there and i looked for the closest spot to yearl which so happened to be right in front of the car while everyone was in it. Aunt, Mom, Brother, 12 Year old cousin.... EPIC FAIL...but i felt mad good after.
--- Yo yesterday was a real eye opener for me. (6-3-09
I was rollin around with a certain female friend we were about to get it poppin .. yooo it was terrible..now I've lived in my share of hoods and shit now that i think about one in particular it didn't even feel like the hood it was home but this neighborhood in Philadelphia is from straight out of an episode of The Wire yo. I thought i was in Hamsterdam n shit. Shit all over the streets (junk not feces) crack heads everywhere ...maad little kids and that's what bugged me because homegirl said that a little girl was kidnapped and raped like around a block away from where she lays her head. I go in the house n shit and yo its a few years away from being a vacant. Apparently homegirl's mom don't want her around so she came down to Philly. It just made me appreciate everything so much more and I may be selfish but i don't give a fuck. I very easily could be living in those fucked up surroundings my mom could have deaded me and i could have been homeless n shit or doing dirt. Only by the grace of God who has blessed me with a good fam and intelligence and the ability to get a (dare i say it) DEGREE so that i don't get to lay my head in a place as fucked up as Kensington.
