Supposedly this movie [The Lovely Bones-IMDB] is about this girl who gets shot in Philadelphia (sounds like a non fictional tale but hold ya skirts) So homegirl gets shot in Suburban Philadelphia; instead of the popular belief that we go to heaven or hell or some really deep ass hole. She floats around the living as a ghost i guess and watches her family. ooooh.. i digress it appears shes watching her fam and her killer from heaven ,my bad, anyway The movie itself has a good premise but its not the type of movie that interests me; either a movie has to have to have some killing/violence; some profound message or some black people. This movie seems to have neither but again great premise!
It kinda plays to my idea of what death is like. Now, i believe in God but if I said "my spirit flies to heaven after i die" you wouldn't sense much conviction in my voice. Its a nice idea to have but being that we have cells n shit and that science explains everything its quite possible that we just get.. (iunno) deleted and I'm not talking about "stored in the Recycle Bin deleted" im talking "Recycle Bin, left click, erase this shit off my computer deleted" Finality, ultimate closure, the end.
Sad but thats what i think and although its scary i'm at peace with it, Ive been at peace with it. Everyone has to go through it and everyone went through puberty right!?? That wasnt that bad...
UMM...I do hope for the best though. Sometimes back in the day when I'm at church or in a funeral or something I often picture (cuz im probably bored). A ghost (of the deceased) watching everyone watching the eulogy/funeral. They watching everyone cry for them and shit and i think to myself it must feel nice to see everyone together crying for you... i think. Part of me wants death to be that way. You die then your spirit walks around the earth invisible to all living things. Hmm now that i think about it almost like that Patrick Swayze movie, but since this is real life you cant touch shit or push people in front of cars...although that would explain all the unfortunate shit that happens to people. But yea, thats what i'd want death to be like, you just stay and watch ya family go on throughout their lives without you...it would probably be painful but at least it ain't cancer or a bullet or a train.
Oh yeah Ghost, casper umm that resse witherspoon movie...i guess the premise aint all that original... Shocking...not
"keep the public undisciplined and ignorant. keep the public confused, keep em distracted with matters of NO IMPORTANCE; keep em diverted from real social issues."
I see that shit running rampant these days all these celebrity blogs, reality tv shows, vh1,TMZ, MTO even ESPN. I remember the days when rumors was just rumors and things needed to be proved before they were even considered truth. Now speculation is enough everyone is too busy worried about the Rihannas, T.O.'s and Kanyes of the world, well... not worried but the attention they're getting is not warranted. The shit that was being kept in the tabloids are now everywhere and they are now called journalism which then takes away from the health insurance issue, the iraq issue n whatnot.
lol "entertainment kept at the 6th grade level. jay Z makin music for 13 year olds."
Truthful shit, Laffy Taffy, Halle Berry, Soulja Boy's discography, all these simple ass songs being pushed by the media, music industry and whatnot; and the masses gobble it up like thanksgiving dinner further enforcing its spins in the airwaves. Its not only the simple songs its the "formulaic" songs (ie BS w/a hook) too that stay getting airplay while anything with a hint of a brain gets pushed on the back burner.
earrings, tight pants, skinny jeans are trends by design?!??
Of course its by design, males were wearing pink a couple of years ago are they not. Now everybody wanna front like they weren't part of the Salmon Movement; I wonder how everybody gonna act in a couple of years when the skinny jeans thing fades out. Mad people gonna need a spatula to pick their faces up off the ground. Something so blatantly Femme has actually gotten play for a minute now. It makes me think of that boondock episode when Riley was wearing ganstalicious' (an openly gay rapper's) clothing line
lol i think thats a bra or somthing
Now the whole blood sacrifice thing is a bit left. That's overdoing it although the evidence is there because these things DID happen, Alliyahs been dead for like 8years now. for all i know that evidence is circumstantial at best; it does make one wonder though. Shit this whole rant my Prof Mcgriff makes me wonder..hence the post
Yeah call me 
spontaneous but i decided on Friday that i would head out to NYC to do it up for my boys bday. I was excited but not as excited when the day came, which was the next day; not because I'll get to see my friends from college (i was a bit psyched for that i'll admit) but I was excited for the sheer fact that I will be in New York City again. Writing this is making me feel like a tourist cause in my head I'm thinkin tourists from Milwaukee feel the same way I felt when they are on their way to "The city that never sleeps".
I took the "Chinese bus" which is basically a bus company owned by chinese people and they transport people to major cities for like 12 bucks ($20 round trip). Chances are you probably have one if there is a Chinatown in your city. I'm in the bus and we approach the Holland Tunnel and i see the skyline im not gonna front I started tearing up a lil. Shit was as beautiful as I left it, shit more even.
aight fast forward cause this is basically an I[heart] NY thread than a what i did thread.
I got mad fuckin drunk. I carried a nice mini bottle of EnJ across state lines and it did me in, when we were at the hot ass club (club stay: NO A.C.) i wanted to e'arl B.
My boy coulda smashed some chick he knew but she wouldn't fuck on account of mad heads sleeping outside their door (me included), im guessing. So his drunk ass goes nuts and kicks her out at 5:30 in the morning. GRIMEY but we've all been guilty of such a thing. She came from BK jus to "sleep over" so homboy got tight and kicked her out with impunity. So instead of listening moans, smacks and screams I heard yelling, shouting and smacking lol. Fireworks indeed.
. Yo people slay the isht outta me. My friend stay getting harassed by this guy. He's leaving all types of crazy voice mails in her phone and he really sounds like a mental case. Why do people do this, don't they know they are fucking up your chances of getting the girl/guy even more by acting a fool in someones voice mail. Voice mails are forever (well, as long as the person saves it on their phone) and your taped rant can be played in front of anyone whenever the receiver feels like it, not a smart move believe me i know (drunk dials are a bitch). Women do the same thing, matter of fact I wouldn't be surprised if it's done more by women because a man going nuts on account of someone not wanting them is "womanly" IMO. When a woman is burned (fig.) by a man she lets everybody know. Status messages reflect their angst and it almost always shows in their attitude also. They get mad and condemn all men as dogs and all that; you got your "niggas aint shits" or my personal favorite "ima turn lesbian" lol (sure you will ). Then a day comes when they find the one who's different then it repeats all over again. In my experience I've learned that getting mad or tight over someone you just met just makes you look like a needy fool. It shows weakness and desperation, if someone doesn't want you just move on chances are you're in the vicinity of another single person who fits your parameters or who's willing to be with you. Yeah the possibilities were there but if it aint happenin it aint happenin...move on. Instead of being all imbalanced and iracible keep your head and stay open for opportunities that can arise, you'll look like a better person for it, now if only everyone else knew this shit...
Damn my thumb hurts like a motha fucka
Yeah i know about the whole "models are part of the reason women have an unrealistic idea of what beauty is" thing but damn...this chick is one of the many definitions of beauty we have. Shorty got gifts and I wanna unwrap em.
I don't even like ass like that, well i digress I love ass but Titties got the edge; shiet my ideal woman has to have at least a phat Cup and up (not too much tho), and something to grab on in general [including the butbut]. Its not even just the ass, she's just a real nice package. Titties aint too small and her face is amazing.
Her face good good charge, positive vibes. You know how sometimes a face has a "charge" meaning how you can sorta feel out a persons demeanor/personality just by going off their face/facial expressions. She got an ass like Buffie the body's but Buff's face was kinda stank...at least from the pics i remember from back in the day.
Here go some more:
21 Kids? really?
homeboy is 29 years old..so that means he has a kid for every year since he was 8 (hypothetically, just fucking around with numbers).
He working a minimum wage job and basically has to give half his paycheck to all his baby mommas every month. That must be like 1 dollar and change per month lol My brain cannot allow me to feel sorry for this muhfucka. how you make a mistake 21 times? You gotta be the worlds dumbest muthafucka to dig a hole so deep. Not to mention the dude risked his livelyhood, he coulda caught something (if he didn't already) and end up being another effin statistic, not that he's not one already, homeboy is basically on the top of the stat sheet in CP (concieving percentage [for those who hit raw more than 7 times]). Shit is giving us a bad name... The phenomena of absent fathers in a childs life is just one of the many negative stats we (black folk) are leading in when it comes to social statistics....its a damn shame b
Just neutered the dog (Lucky) today.
I think overall he'll be better for it because it lessens his chances of getting cancer and it improves his temperment. Little Luck's testosterone has gotten him into some shit especially with dogs twice his size. Ever since we got him he's been a ticking timebomb around other mutts, you think he was one of them Vick dogs (he isn't he too small). The way he growls at them makes me think if he wasn't leashed up he would kill or get killed. For a dog his size it was dangerous cuz if he fucks with a German Rottie his ass is food.
But as a male maybe he needed that testosterone. He just came home today so i havent seen him around other dogs but what if the neighbors young ass dog (who has his balls) pushes him around and shit. He's already rambuctious as it is and in the past Luck wasn't havin it, i'm 100% sure that if i let lucky on him he'd kill him. Im not saying I would allow that but thats the vibe he gives off when he was around other mutts, thats how Luck did, He was a street dog so what if thats his defense mechanism who am i to relieve him of that through subtraction.If lucky gets iunno lets say (fucked up) by any other mutt without his balls ima feel like I (as a male) did him a disservice. As a human male we are almost constantly competing with one another. Whether it be clothing, whips, the chicks on our arm, economic status or just plain cromangnon caveman im stronger than you type shit we stay competing with one another. If I didn't have my balls...where would i be in the game of life? would i be better off without em??
- What gender are you? I exude maleness
- How old are you? I am 23 years old
- Which country do you originate from? The Bronx, New York, USA
- What do you do for a living? Study, Macy's
- At what age did you have your first sexual experience? umm...6 [ :-( / :-)]
- At what age did you first have sex? 19
- How often do you have sex? you'd be surprised...not enough
- How often would you like to have sex? In a perfect world? every day!!
- Do you enjoy having sex? very much so
- Do you orgasm when you have sex? This must be a survey for women....Yes, its rare that i don't Org, but it has happened before
- Do you experience multiple orgasms? Sometimes [def tw'ords the women]
- Do your prefer foreplay to intercourse? full coitus...i like fuckin more but i engage in both fervently.
- Have you ever had sex or participated in any sexual activities without your full consent? Hmm i guess being six years old ain't full consent...but it was cool, saw something i never seen before, much less fathom (at that time)
- Do you have any fantasies? yeah, i wanna fuck in a park and homegirl gotta be wearing a short skirt for easy access..broad day??? nahh let me not OD. Threesome, thats another one aannd crazy uninhibited choke a bitch, dig in my back, I hate you sex, hot shit ;-) .
- What are your fantasies? ohh umm look at the question above lol
- Are you homosexual, heterosexual, bisexual…? 100% Hetero
- Have you ever sought the services of a sex worker? No...i could never pay for sex... i felt like shooting myself when i first went to a strip club. Have i thought about becoming a sex worker... now that would be an interesting question!
- Do you use sex toys? for what?? nope not on myself and not on anyone I've been with.
- Do you enjoy pornography? Yea and no...at times but it becomes redundant after a while...
Survey attained from http://adventuresfrom.com/
...some blog about sex =);
Yeah Im about to delete my Myspace. Theres just no point to it anymore, i dont write in walls, i may comment on a pic or two but that's it. Looking at bitc...people in there is just redundant, cuz ...iunno i guess talking to chicks on there has become ... boring.
I started using Myspace to meet chicks my second week in Philly. I was "backed up" and I knew no one in the area. In that aspect it proved successful but I've always been the type to keep to myself. In real life i stayed in my lane and didn't "talk to strangers", but niggas did it and it seemed like a good idea to at least see how the females around here were so I started sending messages n shit. I felt dumb pursuing chix through the space but the countless male idiots who spew dumb shit to these females made my doing it seem not so bad. I wasn't ODing like ...hmmm lemme cut n paste, it shouldn't be that hard ...
May 2009
wish i had four hands cause you need 4 thumbs up
wer diz cum from u didnt hav diz wen we waz n c.e.p,quake ma manz n all but he cant own da whole thing i want partz
lol
I'd look for more but you get the idea, if you a female then you reallly know what im talking about. I've never been about that type of shit cuz...frankly my natural demeanor won't allow it. Now that I havent done it in a few months I look around at myspace and im like ... why the fuck am i still here? Almost everyone has a facebook and in myspace no one is themselves it seems like. Everyone thinks they're as unique as the templates they use; little do they know that they have 10,000 other people using the same template. You also see the same quotes around peoples profile....
Love live life
I just wanna be successfull
independent woman (some still spell it out I-N-D...smh)
fuck all the haters
im not fucking your man so dont go snooping around
realest nigga this/that/3rd (LOL)
I mean, you can only have so many black barbies running around before you start to become ill....
Yeah i got's to get ready for workk but i'm up early so imna write this before I put in this six hours right quick.
"Good Girls" in the purest form are really starting to bore me...I'm as serious as WW2. I was a fan but this chick turned me completely off. Nothing real significant happened but a culmination of everything like her banality (boringness) and the fact that I haven't see her in a minute made it so. We still talked though until about 2/3 days ago when i stopped contacting her. In essence I have nothing against the conservative ladies [ in the socially traditional sense, not political affiliation] but my last relationship...i idigress...my first relationship was with a "good chiq" she was a freak but she was kinda boring and I'm being real. I'm already a laid back dude going safe and going for women who have overtly"good girl" qualities may not be whats right for me, at least not right now...or ever cuz i like what i like.
I like the peace of mind though, i never had to worry about my ex cheating on me and I never thought about where she's been before me (sexually) [ that could be because she was also a virgin] but this chick and my X didn't drink, didn't smoke (who really cares about that ) They don't like going out, no arguments ... nothing! just on some banal shit and that makes me boring too cuz I'm the type of nigga who laidback until someone snaps me out of it. Now im not looking for homegirl to be a Sleazy McWhorestein but i'm not trying to get with suzie homemaker also. From now on a chick with some edge to her is essential...
"Shy men and ugly women have the hardest time of all in this world."
I saw this as a status message on one of my associates and I have to admit when i seen it it was under a different light than all the other statuses
A closed mouth don't get fed Famous saying...and God help you if you are an ugly girl, 'course too pretty is also your doom, 'cause everyone harbors a secret hatred for the prettiest girl in the room. -Ani Difranco
Back to the lecture at hand...
Each person has a hard time socially cuz of the expectations of the opposing gender. Women want a confident, alpha male cat and if you don't fit the bill then your social life is ass. And for the most part, women, if you ugly then your chances of having a hard time when it comes to males is great.
A shy man is worse than an ugly man??..... i dont get it but history has shown that it applies to the real world... Women love confidence, having money doesnt hurt either [having money helps boost confidence] (Dennis Rodman, Forrest Whitaker, Jay-z LoL). Ive been in both sides of this spectrum. Madda fact its one of the changes Ive made in my life time. At some point in life i realized that one whos mouth is shut evokes nothing not jealousy, nor lust, nor anger...just indifference and if your so enveloped by the cloud that is indifference no one is gonna see you [specially not the chick you feeling].
So one day i started letting more out i think it was 2-3 years ago so its been recent. I still keep my tact and my manners cuz i still got sense but using words hasn't been an issue. I was a shy child and a shy teenager i was a boy of few words and in general that's all well and good. But i didn't speak on what mattered that's when having my mouth shut hurt. Life was insipid and filled with lament and regret. So at a certain point changing that part of my life became necessary and I'm glad i did.
Strength doesn't lie in being stubborn...shiet a butterfly became fly by changing...
being adaptable shows strength too, s0 even though sometimes when it seems like you've been dealt a bad hand whether it be through demeanor or physical qualities there's always a way past the barriers laid out before you not to be corny or nothin but the bulldozer lies within ( that def was corny)
Now fuck off
I'm not the perfect dude, i know this and part of my mortality is my flaws. We all have em and i know mine all too well. Im not trying to list em here (some things are better hidden in the cerebellum). One flaw that ive realize i have is my ungratefulness when things dont go my way i notice it and i subconsciously magnify it to the point where its "engrossingly" bigger then it really is and when that happens i start not appreciating what i do have.
Yesterday was a bad day and i basically downplayed all the things i have goin for me such as family, being alive and having my health...I focused on the isht i didn't have such as friends a car, a social life etc.
I've been thinking tho, Basically ,my life ain't complicated and it can get complicated in an instant and next thing you know I'm locked up or i got a seed or I'm dead! lol! Plaxico Burress shot himself in the leg in the middle of a club...all that probably took a millisecond and he facing 3-15 currently. Its easier to complicate life than to uncomplicate it and I should be greatful for what i have cuz my situation could always get worse.
And ive also been thinking maybe its time to change my ways again. Ive done it time and time again and better everytime.... Im thinkin its that time again...maybe in the commin posts i'll go into depth...as of now take the red text and apply it to your life.
