Couple of randoms
I've been cooling in my aggression in searching for females to get with in. Either for fuckings sake or for the sake of getting to know a chick i've paused for about a month now. Now sometimes I've asked myself why ive done this and the answer is i just got tired. I was always on my phone at night, always texting it got tiresome.
I was aggressive in a search for someone who's worth fucking or someone just worthwhile lol. I was asking the same questions over and over. "what u like in a man", "whats your name again", "what are your hobbies", "Oh word, it got to the point where i dreaded meetin a new lady (kinda).
Well i wasnt searchin as hard but i was talkin to somebody, not talking as in we mad close and we may get into something (why don't people call it something else) but in the beginning stages of gettin to know someone. I met her at work. The thing is I sincerely think that she's not ready for me or anybody yet. She's been through some shit (Philly Girl shit lol) she got a 5 month old and i doubt shes completely over her man (ex fiance). The second time i talked to her I She started going off course into this nigga. She was so adamant it was quite easy for me to pick up. She's cool as hell and she got some big ass titties (30% is probably milk) but it wasnt hard lettin it go... I am however bout to get back into it im just not dating anyone unless I get some rapport or some great (not good) vibes from them. My Ol' Roomie equated his post grad dating experience to that of interviews lol although mine aren't literally like that (im sure his isnt either) the essence is there and fuck it im not 30.
Another thing i think its time to change the whole "working for the man" saying/cliche. "Working for the money" has the same tone somewhat. Specially at this point in my life. Im a post grad working at Macys' (so far...i hope) after i grad i get the lowest payin shit job I've ever worked (aint that a BISH) . so Im working for the money but im doing something i'd say is "beneath me" to get it. I'm doin it for the Trips to NY, the Ipod Touches, the slurpees the + on my statement but its not enough right now and although this is a means to an end, the work doesn't mean anything. So workin for the money is my working for the man, cuz i couldn't give two shits about the manager lol..hopefully i hearback from that other gig then i can work for MO' Money lol
PZ
Iite my weekend was tight:
Went to NYC again, Another one of my Old roomates from college had a birthday.
Yo i got madd drunk off of some random vodka, i was so fucked up i actually danced when we got in the club ... but look at me im gettin ahead of myself. Lemme list my antics that night.
- Stopped an NYC cab with my body. I apparently jumped right in front of the muthafuckin car, nice brakes, most defenitely.
- Once i got in the cab i was talkin up a storm. Thats how one can tell that i'm drunk if i start babbling talkin shit to a cabby while on the passenger seat im definitely drunk.
- Promoter BULLSHIT. my x roomie knows a promoter who said he can get everyone in and get us a good price on bottles. Once we get there we get what i like to call the Party promoter jerk. Homeboy basically listed all these new stipulations we had to ahere to so that he can hold up his original end of the bargain. Wack ass nigga wanted us to pay a cover and have an ALOT of women with us. We came from a huge pregame so we all fowarded to the club in installments so some groups were without ladies to attatch themselves to. Me being me (and drunk) I wait in that bullshit line after birthday boy went in and when it came time to pay the cover I told em i didnt have any cash. SO they let me in to use the ATM. I walk over to the ATM and procede to press a button in a flash of realization i thought to myself... ima sneak in this bitch. SO after i stop at the atm i calmly and quickly walked in the club and assimilated with the closest crowd so that im not easily found. That shit worked to, much to my amazement i wasnt bothered by security the whole night. =)
- Umm i got more drunk during my time at the club and i wound up giving the cab driver 5 cents tip. Homeboy wasss uuuuuuupset lol
- passed out with my sunglasses on and woke up to throw up the dumplings I ate the night before...Yo dumplings arent bad, saturday was the first time i've ever tried em. Not bad at all.
SO that was my drunk ass night, i didnt fight anyone thank god cuz thats been known to happen when i havent tasted Liquor in a while.
Overall the weekend was tight, I was all smiles, i even got a whit egirls phone number. I wanna live in Chinatown. I know its OD grimey as shit and its always gonna smell like something but theres something about Chinatown in NYC thats sooo, distinct. You'd probably say its the thousands of Chin...Orien...Asian people in the area but Iunno there's something about Chinatown I Like. At this point in my life I could see myself over there...Who knows.
Smh...damn its been a minute since i wrote on this thing.
Yo why are women so fuccin... emotional.
it makes me almost not even wanna deal with it anymore.
Anyway shorti whilin out on me through text sayin i'm too sensitive. She would call me some wack ass name thats so ineffective that its hard not to take it as a joke and I'd know she's joking (mad obvious, even through text) so i'd be be like "u mad mean" and often times when we were first talkin and throughout the time we've had words I'd say shit like that in a joking manner now lately all of a sudden i'm sensitive and annoying. Get the fuck outta here! If anyone's being that its def not me. Then she wanna go n say "maybe I should stop fuccin with you since i annoy you so much". I deaded it right there. and to think I'm not talking to her for something so stupid doesn't sit right with me ...cuz its outright dumb as shit.
*lightbulb*
i think i know why im so tight! She's od taking our friendship hostage (as of now cuz sometimes we on some more than friends shit). She thinks that shes so important to me that i would be frightened at the thought of her taking herself away from me. She trying to take my friendship for weakness and that gets me SOOOO FUCKIN HEEAAATED. Yeah she's the coolest chick i know but if life has taught me anything its taught me that anyone who hasn't sheltered me in they uterus is replaceable. My world don't go gray for no one.
I pride myself on not needing anybody and i constantly prove it to myself by burning bridges to people i once knew. I've lost a bunch of friends but it wasn't for no reason. I don't just go out and say "fuck you" and nuke the bridge. It has to be something, big or small and when i do decide to say fuck it I do so.
Goin back to what i was sayin, I feel like im making it worse but its whatever... i think i need time cuz my way really isn't healthy.
Its Official!
After years and y
ears of resistance, choosing alternatives and straight up rejecting.
I have now joined the millions {and millions} of ipod heads and got me an IPod Touch. I've wanted something like an Ipod touch for a while now probably ever since the first version came out.
Ive been close to gettin it a couple of times but i wasnt working and the whole Itunes thing confused me, shit it still does. My brother has the original Zune and if he downloads an album on his comp, puts it on his Zune then deletes the song off his computer the next time he plugs his zune into his comp that album is deleted off his Zune. That shit is wack as shit to me. We brought your shit dont fuck with the music we choose to put on our devicce. I hope Itunes is not like that but I definitely would not be suprised. Ive heard many a problem about it so far so i just chose an evil with the most apps i guess. Fuck it.
I wanted a Zune HD. Since ive been holding out on getting an Itouch for a minute in came the zune which came out on the 15th and i was about to get that but its too young. Theres only 7 apps for it now and although i want a new music player i like that the itouch has more features. All they need now is a camera and i'll be tight as fuck if they add it next year. (damn now im subjected to the neverending updates and new i touches every year).
My whole mode has been to go to the left while everybody goes right and to look good and on top while doing it. I've tried that with my last MP3 (creative zen vision M) but it didnt work out, although it is a durable ass piece of work. Ima use it for the gym from now on. This will be the most notable conformation ive made since ...well since joining myspace... i think lol whatever im pretty sure it will be tight though so im not complaining, yet.
Any way... in other news...
Lynwood Rose- Raphael Saadiq, Qtip & D'angelo.
I havent listened to it yet since my wireless is currently ass cheeks but 2/3 of the artists ive listed above are known for putting in work so ima give that a nice listen and hopefully i agree with it.
Pz
Max B sentanced to 75 years in PRISON/Jail/Confinement....
Tough Break Nigga!!
Rapper or not; im digging your music or not; you do dumb shit you deserve what you get. Real nigga shit, two people were killed you got caught; tough break nigga...you had a nice run. I hate French Montana though (im not hating on him i dislike his voice on record IMO he wack as shit).
That being said about Max B though he did know how to make records. Ima still listen to his shit.. i only have about three mixtapes so as time goes im sure i'll run across some more cuts of his. Damn shame nigga may have blown up more than he already has ...which wasn't really that much of a blow up it was more on some pseudo underground shit but he was nice tho ima admit. Ahh well
School has started but i'm not goin. This is the first Fall in forever that doesn't involve schooling of any kind. Why is this? I graduated bish! Graduation is an accomplishment but its still wierd that im not in school right now. Spring semester came and went and during that time i felt stagnant and unproductive. I like learning shit, i don't appreciate the tests and essays and deadlines but I enjoy learning about stuff that i find interesting; i like conquering classes and cutting corners. School was sorta a hustle; i loved finding ways to get over. Going out partying while I have a test the next day then murking that test like it took my money.... it was fun. Hopefully I do good on these GRE s and i can go get that MPH.
Lately Ive been thinking about movin out my moms crib. I'm 23 and people say im relatively young but i've lived away from my fam for four years now while i was in Albany (no dorms; apt/house flow) and i was as independent as ive ever been. Moms don't put any sanctions on me while ive been here but I am a certain way when I have my own spot and I like THAT Don better. Then again I wasn't living in the real world; everyone around me down there were in the same boat, trying to graduate school, struggling while trying to have a good time. The real world aint no joke and I like being prepared before I make a huge decision and im not there yet. So Ima enjoy the full fridge and nice diggs until im straight to bounce.
Vodka and Rum
Alright I don't do this often but music is a very "instrumental" part of my life and i feel that there is a lack of musical posts in my shit. Its not like its totally my fault though ( I type as some asshat blasts Gucci Mane out his car while rolling down my street) hmmm maybe its due to lack of inspiration =)
Anyway this Mixtape right here
Fire; nothing new in terms of lyrical content cause most of the songs are basically taken from other popular cuts from back in the day and even recently (hence "saturday night fever"- wyclef+ kanye verse from "american boy" over a crazy ass beat). The beats are tight as fuck! The most notable thing in my eyes is the unlikely tandem of a Jamaican and a Russian making music of all things...i can see them makin a killa drink though.
From Russia to Jamaica. The much talked-about new hip-hop duo Fly Gypsy made its first splash in late 2008...Founded by the Russian-born producer and songwriter Alexei Jendayi and the Jamaican-born emcee Komplex (aka Kowboy Kom), Fly Gypsy became an instant favorite among fans thanks to its infectious beats, catchy hooks, satirical concepts, and polished image. Music critics, meanwhile, have praised the Washington, D.C.-based duo for attaining broad commercial appeal without compromising its musicianship or its message, frequently comparing the duo to the Fugees, Jay-Z, and Kanye West. SOURCE: Jango
Not bad company to be compared to...
Speaking of Jamaican i had my first Jamaican not too long ago; I've always wanted to fuck a Jamaican chick but it just never happened, i should have made it a mission but... well actually not really. It was tight as fucc though. "The way she backed it up on me baby oww have mercy" I didn't get head from her though cuz if i did I wouldn't use a condom and then i'd have to wonder and stress. I've always seen Jamaican broads as OD passionate (inverse: Loud) and strong (inverse: B*tchy). They have some of the strongest personalities in the Caribbean. Good thing and bad thing cuz they can get you into some shit. One of my folk back home in Brooklyn would have to fight a sibling or a friend every fucking time he got with a Yardie-American Chick and ima admit it turned me off to them at an early age.
Anyway goin back to the Yardie/Ruski Collaboration thing thats wassup cause I dont see things like that anymore. I see for the most part that we are basically still segregated, its just that this time its not an actual motive it just happens. Black people become involved in "black" things (tyler perry, mediatakeout, college hill, real houswives of wherever) and white people do their "white" thing (mayonaise, Paris Hilton, The Hills, Perez Hilton). Most of us hang out with people with the skin color as us and we don't give other people the same chance due to misunderstandings, ignorance, fear or whatever. Lookin back at my life i was never in that type of box; ive fucked with white people, Latin folk, Asians and of course people Black folk. I'm open like that and i guess i have they type of personality that can relate me to all those groups. Shit, back in college some of my boys would marvel at the simple fact that white girls can talk to me and vice versa. And i'd be shocked at their reactions because to me its not really a big thing; they human just like us and besides one would be shocked as to how much we have in common. It sure as fuck shocked me I lived in a house with 7 other white people and i was listening to hip hop blast throughout the house all the time!
We as humans have made strides toward race relations and intermingling to the point where seeing an interracial couple is almost common place. Yet even forming the simplest of relationships is as hard as GRE geometry; Imagine the music we can make together if we try.
Damn that last line was corny as FUCK
