COGNI.VOL...

Im startin to think that somethins wrong wit me..(yes something new)

I feel like my mask is fallin apart

Random people on the street would tell me to smile, people think im miserable and yes that may be somewhat true but i dont want to show it. I guess i can't help but walk around with a frown, This week has been a bit rough. I havent got much sleep and i got mad work to do.

Today in acting class i actually participated, by choice.
We were supposed to be an A and B couple....

An A person is a dominant, sorta confident male manifested in physical cues...planted feet, good posture, pronounced voice
A B person is the opposite a meek person who cant keep eye contact, fidgety, making him/herself small, low voice

Although i think i am a mixture of the two i felt like a B after the exersize though

me and this girl were acting like we were on a date, I was the A person, She was the B person.. I dont know if it was because its my first time acting, ever, in front of an audience lol; but i fucked up.. My voice was low and myh feet werent planted and i didnt have good posture. I needed coaching to be an A person lol.... It bugged me a lil but i got over it the second and third time i went up i killed it, i had people givin me props. It should be smooth sailing from here. I think this class will be beneficial to me in a way thats more than acting. lol who knows i may even return to being the total class clown i was in grade school.

Work was FUCKING ANNOYING today. Not only did i have to do everything but the manager is treatin me like a bitch or sum shit. Every muhfucka in there got their break before me and i came into work earlier than most of em. Whenever i would ask for my break she would always have something to say to the point that i feel she was trying to style on me (lol). She would put me on the ovens everyday and everytime i step away to get a breather she has something to say.....maybe im being touchy but i dont like this bitch fo real...ever since she called me a liar twice (second time i let her know) I knew i wouldnt like her at alll. I'm defenitely gonna look for another job soon as i get these tests out of the way; either that or ask for a transfet to another unit...just not zepps or wendys or the kitchen lol...Mall here i come...Until then this bitch is still my boss and I'll do as she says but other than that im not having words with her. She says something other than an order its goin one ear out the other.

Lemme get to work