COGNI.VOL...

For as long as i can remember I've always been a private person. I don't know when i started to become such a person but i have no qualms about labeling myself as one. It is what it is. Maybe i like the freedom of being a present day nigga (dude without a past). By nature I like keeping to myself i dont like sharing shit about me.

Heres my mental about the whole thing::
Everything is a implied secret until brought into question by whoever asks a question, then I look at the relationship i have with whoever and depending on that and my intentions with whoever i will tell them whatever it is i was previously keeping.

If its about me its automatically kept under wraps; lol ( i was born for the FBI); i dont even mix and match people. friends from home and college friends never meet..everyone is sectioned off naturally. its really wierd writing this:

1. Becasue it sounds OD wierd
2. Because im writing this shit actually down, tellin why i keep secrets

I dont like being the but of public discussion, especially when its about what i do and the inner workings of what i do. I dont like being scrutinized unless i ask for it. I ask for it alot though from certain people ima tell u the reason why after im through with this jawnt. Sometimes it shocks me when people tell me they have been talkin about me. In my head i go like, why? lol like im not hot shit. hmm its not that i dont like being the butt of public discussion maybe I dont expect to be.
Anyway its in my nature to keep to myself i cant help it. Sometimes it gets in the way though especially with tellin the ladies about who they are dealing with. I generally open up to em because the goal is to get them comfortable around me so i can do whatever (Fuck em or Wife em). speaking of ladies I tend to open up to girls; no man alive knows what three or four girls know when it comes to me. A.J,T.G,T.V,N.B shouts to em cuz without them no one would have a clue bout me.
Ladies generally care more i feel that they pry more also leading me to tell em more shit. No nigga knows about me because ive been burned in the past by telling dudes about me and they've used it against me, specially during grade school. Besides other niggas have more potential to be enemies than any female so i just let them get the surface me. Thats why i generally have no best friend whos a male cuz deep down inside i dont trust them with the inner workings of myself. I don't see it changing any time soon and that may be a problem in anyone elses eyes; i'll admit that but to me its just my way of surviving. Maybe i should just stop worrying about what other muthafuckas think and just do me. Yes, but i do me anyway i just dont have to explain it to anyone unless i want to ( i have the solutions and the rebuttals; my brain at war). Thats probably how its gonna be for the rest of my life and im good.