My eyes are soooo lazy, im not used to getting up this early. i improved to 11AM but the past few days ive been getting up at 7/8 AM for interviews. My first interview was Warehouse Management in this company that distributes donated toys/books/clothes to kids. It paid good so i went to check it out. Little did i know that the place is more than two hours away. Shiet its not even in Philadelphia. I found out that a bus goes over there so i went to check it out. By the time i got there i was so turned off at the idea of working there that i didnt care when the lady said she couldnt give me the job due to no management experience. LOL the lady called me up there and that was one of the first things she said!! im like, what the fuck, but i didnt care cuz i would hate commuting over there every day, and septa is so fucked up that after as certain time the buses would stop runnin. My interview today was in the city but they asked me to sell insurance for commission, HEWLLLLL NOOOOOO. WTF this was supposed to be the week i come out with a job. Oh well im just gonna keep looking....
One thing the insurance company did do for me was put things in perspective. In their marketing pitch they mentioned the difference between a job and a career. He wrote {on a board with a marker, you know how they do} that a job is: "a hat you put on a 9 and you take off at 5". I was thinking that a job would be something i want because most of the stuff i love about life has nothing to do with a job. I would work earn money and live life everyday after 5PM, with my wife, kids and my doberman pincer named Cicero. He then went over career and he listed a few attributes that make a career a career. One of the attributes listed was:
I was thinkin about it throughout the train ride and being that i need a purpose in order to succeed in life. Not that i wasn't thinkin about what i wanted to do before but there was a sense of purpose missing. What makes someone wanna sell insurance? What makes people wanna crunch numbers all day? Passion summed it up. I was also talkin to shorty (someone else, holla) today and she lookin to get her CPA. A piece of the convo went like this.
Her: yeah
Her: work is so busy this time of year
Me: tax time
Me: season, rather lol
Me: least you like it and have a passion for it, thats great... {it was on my mind that much that i brought it up while talkin to this chick}
Her fine self: yeah thats how people become successful ....passion
then i thought about sex... lol
Among that i thought about AIDS and how im od scared of it. One of the things im adamant of in my life is a safe sex life, for me and my peoples (friends and ethnicity). In late January I wanted to go into Business Administration for my masters but i wanted it just for the money and i figured that going through all that math might not be good for me financially (i could fail out) and i need a couple of years work experience and a high GMAT score which is more od math. I then vied for A Masters in Communications because there is alot of job opportunities for it. Then i found out that its OD competitive and it still isn't a very specific road map laid out for me. I still didn't know what to do or what i could do with such a degree.
My mom then suggested i tried Hospital Administration you know being the admin in a hospital n shit. I figured hey that's wassup! I can keep to the family occupation and be in a hospital (My Aunt is a Nurse and Mom is a Respiratory Therapist) i felt that it would be close to home and would do as a substitution for passion. I was on that route until i figured out what i figured out above (me and me aids fear). Then i thought about my obsession with my weight and of how fat America is getting. Then it clicked....Public Health. A career in public health would help me do something about denting the prevalence of aids in our community and help fight childhood and general obesity. I even wrote about these things on here. Not to mention my beef with these fucked up politicians and the lack of concern over global warming.
Yoo, am i reaching or did i really find out what I'm supposed to do in life???
Did i find my calling? because ever since Ive made the decision it stuck in a way that no other decision has.
there were always ifs and maybes and fogged up areas from here to where ever
but i feel that i have a clear view of what i wanna do now. I could be a health behavioral analyst or work for the gov't, the CDC. Shit pays good too, don't get it fucked up lol. Money Is A Major Issue ya digg lol, like im from Florida...feel me?
[M.I.A.M.I] just in case you didn't get it (damn im so witty)
I may be slow to choose but I'm just tryin to undo what i did in the past. I was a sociology major... :-(
I got more less serious shit but ima get at that later or tommorow.... life is soo fuckin funny
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