COGNI.VOL...

This isn't alternate reality
and whats broken is not mended
decisions were made, life moves on
this is something I've apprehended

What sticks to me in such a way
with ifs and supposes
lingers on since the day
our sea did the Moses

Although its sad and rightly so
the decision was probably best
the past is missed so is my shorts
damn i miss suckin on them breasts







...lol just a lil something i wrizzote. its been a while since i wrote poetry. This one was somewhat structured and I'm used to just freestyling but i like the way it turned out.

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Yo im such a freak. I've been told this countless times but im thinkin its starting to become unhealthy. I think about sex all the time. I know that this is normal for men but i think i crossed the line a looong time ago. The droughts aren't helping, this past summer i moved over here to Philly and haven't had sex for three months. The semester before there was a mini drought also. When i am having sex i get a one track mind and that's to get my nut. My girl..i mean ex complained about it but that was all she complained about. I'm surprised she was so down for me and my sex drive. Not all girls are like that. Anytime i wanted to have sex, barring a period and if we were in a public setting she would give it to me, shit she wanted it too.
I was spoiled rotten; I was a kid in a candy store (i treated her like candy if you know what I'm saying). I didn't need to even look at another chick because she kept me...occupied in more ways than one. A highlight of ours that we would talk and text about would be the box of twelve condoms we used up in five days(SAFE SEX PEOPLE! QUIT SPREADIN SHIT) . When I have sex with a chick once is never, ever enough. I use a 3 pack a night, two that night and one in the morning. There are times when I burn myself out though. Usually i just need to eat and thats taken care of.
I've always had a crazy libido and i never understood why. Its a gift and a curse cause sometimes i get "injured" while goin in. This is the worst sexual drought Ive ever sustained. This is mainly due to the fact that Ive been having sex at a high ass rate and very consistently since Oct 27th ( a lil bit before that too) due to the last drought. I'm afraid the next girl I'm with is not gonna be able to fuck with me because i feel like I'm gonna beat (no Chris Brown) the breaks off the next girl i get with. One thing i don't do is jump around though. Ive never done that. I like havin sex with girls i'd probably would wanna fuck again, maybe for a period of time.
I'm gonna admit before the weight loss i wasn't getting it like this lol, not at all. I did my thing here and there but nothin major. Maybe the fact that my sexual fuel tank is that of a H2 Hummer is because i was so frustrated. Ohh well. If you wondering, in times like these, if i "make due" until someone comes along then yeah i do make due. Otherwise i would probably go crazy. My first week at home was not sweet at all, i was Od down, depressed because i wasn't gettin any LOL. Shits was crazy! At that point i couldn't go a week without the pooms!!! Its mainly the reason why i missed my lady too. Because of my libido, sex could be deemed a big part of our past relationship. Without it, and the added distance apart....we fell apart. (obvii it wasn't the only reason)


*thinkin*
Damn i need to stop blogging about her.
For real now, am i stuck???
I can't be stuck.
I just got nothin goin on right now
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In other news: I finally hit the wall of customization fuckin with the default templates that Blogger offers; So i went outside the website and got it like i would do the old myspace layouts. I thought that the formatting of this site was like creating a website from scratch using HTML or JAVA or some shit. But low and behold the shit is copying and pasting!! whaddaya know! lol. Shits cool though, i defenitely was thinking brown because i think that brown and burgundy

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Oh yeah I'm gonna go and say it...
The Dunk Contest was super fuckin wack. Niggas is doin weak dunks and Nate Robinson usedWilson Chandler to dunk some regular shit, Homie wouldn't have jumped over Dwight Howard if he didnt use his other hand to get that lift. What happened to Vince Carter and Kobe Bryant type shit. Niggas be on some outrageousment stuff today. Maybe I'm fucked up lol, I'm an old school nigga then. Allen Iverson cut his hair! I was shocked as hell but i did see it comming. Carmelo Anthony, Trey Songs, LudaCris of all people! When Luda and A.I. cut their braids off then braids are dead!!

Point Blank (.)