COGNI.VOL...

"The fact that i dont have a job right now sucks"

I dont want to be a bum ass nigga like the grown men in my life. When im down the road 10, 20 years in the future i want to be in a positive place, i dont wanna work no dead end shit job that has no meaning and no prestige. I want to be a provider for whatever family i hope to have and to be able to say im doin what im supposed to be doing. Moms told me about this one family friend who has like 8 baby mamas. Im thinkin what the fuck is wrong with this nigga. I mean he cool and all and i shouldnt knock his situation but damn. Shit happens in life and people makes mistakes but cmon b. Homie works in a less than desirable profession too, not much money ya dig, gettin handouts from his fam. I know family is there to help you out but i dont want help when im older. I want to stand on my own two like a man, even though most of the men i know havent. The choices ive made out of youthful apathy are wrackin my brain lately, i wonder if its too late to reverse it.

I dont know the situation about every other man out there, all i can do is do me and make sure I am headed where i want to be headed. 8 kids from 8 different mothers is crazy though, i luv sex but i cant let it drive me to do stupid shit like that. Alot of people dont have my smarts though. I could fuck everything that move but i fuck what moves me. Yeah i would fuck without rubbers but damn, the times are crazy and maybe sex requires rubbers in these times. To be a young papi is something that i am not trying to do at all right now. Yeah it could be done, "i will survive" and all that but im not trying to feel that responsibility rite now and that is (naturally) part of the reason why i never went raw on a chick (that and a crazy fear of my dick being useless through aids n shit). But yeah...went off tangent here, lookin like a "practice safe sex commercial"

but this is me, I'm a smart nigga, im tryin to mitigate the worst and not have a slew of dumb decisions fuck my shit up. Why they givin dog the bounty hunter another season, SMH...white people...anyway. Yeah

Im hungry so ima go to sleep while watchin tool academy

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