COGNI.VOL...

hmm nothin really eventful
went over this chicks house today, didnt do much just watched a movie
didnt really feel like it was the appropriate time since this is the first time i met her
she cool though sexy caramel skin, she looks latin though
its all good, we didnt get to finish the movie because she had plans to go out n shit.
She asked me to come back through so we can finish it so ima make moves then

in other Chick news
Girl from last thursday has been MIA... last i talked to her she had a cold n shit but today was her day off and we were lookin to fuck but again...Missing In Action (who knows)

Ohhh man this 18 year old is killin me. She is OD in luv with me iuuno how (this fast course i know why..cuz im the shit, cream of the crop nigga). She texted me saying that "Im the type of dude she lookin for, how she really likes me, she really wants this to go somewhere"..iuuno being a lil child growing up with no love (xept fam) i eat it up and she got me texting her back in the same tone LOL...this makes no sense to me but im going with it. she off on mon so ima beat defenitely BUTT...as soon as i told her about me goin back to albany (dont ask why i told her) she tellin me she gonna fall back a lil. now in my head im thinkin i fucked up cuz now the chances of me hittin skins are...cut a lil bit. I bandaged it a lil by sayin ima be here at least every month...i want you, i wanna hold you blah blah blah, why u scared for? In my head i know its wrong but damn i spared her the heartache of her havin to deal wit me going to albany. I wanna beatt lol.
Sometimes my conscience tells me whoa slow down u feeding flames but i ignore it.... in this case i wanna burn.

Im reading this blog and i realize that its time to type a hard word...

.... When it comes to the case of this 18 year old
It solidifies a belief thats been in the back of my head for not so long...
When it comes to certain things i need to be inspired to act. I see beautiful soccer i wanna go out and play it. I see a fit muhfucka i wanna go out and work out. I see my boy gettin numbers by the minute i wanna get on my game also.
When i see someone sayin this type of shit to me... The " i wanna be with you""i want this to go somewhere" chicks who are touchy feely with me. basically jawns who show me that they like me.. it makes me wanna... (hard to explain)
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.it gets to me..not in a bad way but in a good way. lets just say if my dick led me to this chick and she starts talkin like that my heart will soon catch up to my dick. Makin me act like I wanna be with them. Is it acting? maybe...
the feelings are probably less than genuine because the chicks that say this im not reaaaaaallly attracted to like that well this philly chick got me saying and meaning mad shit but then again im OD horny so who knows. It is what it is... i dont think its genuine at all because i am plotting am i. I plotted for the last chick that did me like that... and theres no way she gonna be nothing more than a BIB (Bust it Baby).