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Couple of randoms

I've been cooling in my aggression in searching for females to get with in. Either for fuckings sake or for the sake of getting to know a chick i've paused for about a month now. Now sometimes I've asked myself why ive done this and the answer is i just got tired. I was always on my phone at night, always texting it got tiresome.
I was aggressive in a search for someone who's worth fucking or someone just worthwhile lol. I was asking the same questions over and over. "what u like in a man", "whats your name again", "what are your hobbies", "Oh word, it got to the point where i dreaded meetin a new lady (kinda).
Well i wasnt searchin as hard but i was talkin to somebody, not talking as in we mad close and we may get into something (why don't people call it something else) but in the beginning stages of gettin to know someone. I met her at work. The thing is I sincerely think that she's not ready for me or anybody yet. She's been through some shit (Philly Girl shit lol) she got a 5 month old and i doubt shes completely over her man (ex fiance). The second time i talked to her I She started going off course into this nigga. She was so adamant it was quite easy for me to pick up. She's cool as hell and she got some big ass titties (30% is probably milk) but it wasnt hard lettin it go... I am however bout to get back into it im just not dating anyone unless I get some rapport or some great (not good) vibes from them. My Ol' Roomie equated his post grad dating experience to that of interviews lol although mine aren't literally like that (im sure his isnt either) the essence is there and fuck it im not 30.

Another thing i think its time to change the whole "working for the man" saying/cliche. "Working for the money" has the same tone somewhat. Specially at this point in my life. Im a post grad working at Macys' (so far...i hope) after i grad i get the lowest payin shit job I've ever worked (aint that a BISH) . so Im working for the money but im doing something i'd say is "beneath me" to get it. I'm doin it for the Trips to NY, the Ipod Touches, the slurpees the + on my statement but its not enough right now and although this is a means to an end, the work doesn't mean anything. So workin for the money is my working for the man, cuz i couldn't give two shits about the manager lol..hopefully i hearback from that other gig then i can work for MO' Money lol

PZ