Smh...damn its been a minute since i wrote on this thing.
Yo why are women so fuccin... emotional.
it makes me almost not even wanna deal with it anymore.
Anyway shorti whilin out on me through text sayin i'm too sensitive. She would call me some wack ass name thats so ineffective that its hard not to take it as a joke and I'd know she's joking (mad obvious, even through text) so i'd be be like "u mad mean" and often times when we were first talkin and throughout the time we've had words I'd say shit like that in a joking manner now lately all of a sudden i'm sensitive and annoying. Get the fuck outta here! If anyone's being that its def not me. Then she wanna go n say "maybe I should stop fuccin with you since i annoy you so much". I deaded it right there. and to think I'm not talking to her for something so stupid doesn't sit right with me ...cuz its outright dumb as shit.
*lightbulb*
i think i know why im so tight! She's od taking our friendship hostage (as of now cuz sometimes we on some more than friends shit). She thinks that shes so important to me that i would be frightened at the thought of her taking herself away from me. She trying to take my friendship for weakness and that gets me SOOOO FUCKIN HEEAAATED. Yeah she's the coolest chick i know but if life has taught me anything its taught me that anyone who hasn't sheltered me in they uterus is replaceable. My world don't go gray for no one.
I pride myself on not needing anybody and i constantly prove it to myself by burning bridges to people i once knew. I've lost a bunch of friends but it wasn't for no reason. I don't just go out and say "fuck you" and nuke the bridge. It has to be something, big or small and when i do decide to say fuck it I do so.
Goin back to what i was sayin, I feel like im making it worse but its whatever... i think i need time cuz my way really isn't healthy.
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