Asian persuasion shit
Yo I dunno what it is about this last week but I've been feeening for some Asian pu.. i mean women. Like yeah I've never been with an Asian girl before and that hasn't bothered me at all but i gotta admit im a bit intruiged. I personally only know... Umm wait, (!) I don't know any Asi.. oh wait that chick I've interned with over at the district council. She was mad cute but she wasn't stacking like shorty over here is.
<----Yummy.
I dunno what it is lately about Asian chicks that rev up my libido engine but.. shit... lemme stop lol. Part of it has to do with what makes them themselves. Their features so to speak Sexy eyes, skin color, they jet black hair. honestly I don't think they could take my dick or my sex but that's stereotyping.
:-X
Wow am I wrong for that? lemme take a right turn right quick.
I guess I want just want what i've never had. I'm not totally ignorant though, you don't see too many.... Asian ladies with black men. Mainly that's cause their families would disown them if they did. Now, of course everyone's situation is different and maybe most Asian parents today ain't like that or they would just simply disapprove. Disapprove def sounds like a safer word, less presumptive.
I feel like saying asian is the wrong term. I mean ain't Russia and India in Asia. How come they aren't Asians i just wanna be polycorrect.
Anyway
So maybe the fact that such a social phenomena exist adds to my infatuation with them ladies, weird but I think about that shit. I wonder if my sexual infatuation with Asian women is permanent. Is it? Or will it pass when I do taste that forbidden fruit. Hmm now that I think about it maybe its been in me for longer than i realize. When it comes to my ex the thing that literally caught my ear was her talkin mandarin with this Chinese(?) dude. This was before we had extensive words between each other. I was servin the customers at the on campus sbarros we were workin at and she was at the register there i was handin some fool a spaghetti and meatballs and all of a sudden a full blown Chinese Convo popped off between this black chick and a Chinese dude. Safe to say I was on notice immidiately lol. (any reason to talk bout the ex huh smh)
Anyway iunno somehow o think the answer as to why I'm feenin for an Asian chick is somewhere up there. I never checked the Asian section at spankwire before now I'm all up on it! Which further fucks up my head.
Usually I don't even think about things like that. I mean who vies to have sex with a member of every ethicity. Me myself I can't deliberately do that. I go with the flow when it comes to those type of things. I don't go round trying to talk to every woman that walks the street. I do know niggas that have... And they always late.
Wow major realization...maybe the fact that my ex was so rooted in Chinese culture has something to do with it. She's so rooted in their culture that shes currently in China studying abroad for a year. Even the way we fucked reminds me of how asian chix act in them pornos see she was a virgin and .....hmmm lemme stop. I'm just saying i got a good relationship with my subconscious its all about being honest with yaself i guess if you like me then you'd find out all types of shit about yourself as you write. As evidenced by my posts during the summer of 2008.
oh yeah i my jasc painshop pro free trial is done so i cant black and white my pics anymore. :-( there goes that Newspaper effect. not really think of this as the sunday edition of ya friendly neighborhood newspaper... PZ
Yo the 70's look like they were mad fun. Im watchin some random movie on encore drama right now and its LACED with a 70's type theme. I dunno the name of the flick but I cut into a very psychedelic ass scene with a alotta white folk dancing in a medium sized room with a live band playing. People swinging their hair, dancing n shit, naked bishes with bright facepaint all over their naked body (bodypaint). It looks like a crazy ass vibe and i kinda wished i lived to experience it.
In my opinion everything worth trying nowadays popped off in the 70's. My old boss from back in the day when i was working In DC 37 in NYC would tell me how it was like living through the 70's. As he would tell me and the other intern these stories there was a consistent smile throughout. It almost seemed like he felt euphoric reliving his past adventures. As i saw this I knew homeboy used to get busy back in the day. He would tell us how everything was so cheap back then as opposed to now. Well we were talkin about herb but i deduced that everything was cheaper back then also lol.
He told us about the wild ass parties he attended. Now at that point I've already had a 1 year bid in University at Albany under my belt so I done my share of partying at that point in my life. Even though that was the case i felt like a 12 year old learning about what u can do when ur 17/18 lol cause what the people who were of age (or slightly under) at that time have is so unique! That whole time period is synonymous with good times and crazy experimentation (in general). He did let us know that it wasn't all fun and games though. I mean he was in the thick of the black power movement so it wasn't all gravy especially for black folk OBVIII lol
I've always felt like i possessed an old soul and maybe thats why I'm interested in the time period. Maybe because everything was so new to people and they dabbled. A whole generation of people who got first dibs all these drugs and sounds and shit in their rawest most purest form. Not only all that but lines were clearly drawn. either you were a devout hippie, an avid feminist, an avid environmentalist, you were fervently protesting for something or you were a witness to some of the best music of all time (James Brown, Jimi Hendrix, Disco {i guess}....etc, etc, etc)
Bottom line amid an economic downturn people came together and they obviously got shit done or just had a great time with people with the same motivations as them lol. Iunno i'd love to go back in time with like 300 bucks for like a week and have the craziest time. Not that i don't appreciate our time...as 80's babies our times are clearly defined also and i definitely appreciate that. I don't know how it was being a teen in the 80s but being a kid in the 90s was the shit also so u take what u got feel me...what am i sayin although the 2000's aint like the 90's, 80's or 70's it is an experience to live through it. As we move forward the more we have to look back to and appreciate.
PZ
I Got this from girl Reese's blog aka one of my fav blogs out right now.
Seemed fun to do so I did...need some evidence keep reading
My name is Don and I am an old soul wearing a funny hat. I like to Live life and have fun doin it and I also Love me some Dcups on a slightly thick chick . I have one brother and i think 1/2 a sister.
I wish that i was locked in a room with nicki minaj and jada fire and maaad ciroc vodka and that I have an immunity to every disease possible (so far so good). In order for me to survive I need my itouch, food and women. I hate annoying ass muhfuckas and stuck up women. I have no middle name. People most likely think i got a wierd sense of humor or just weird lol but im just as weird as they are or that they are right. I need to eat everyday. I know how to draw and play the piano, .
I need to get back to my sophmore year workout ethic. I don't like it when people use the word hater alot. I have an abundance of clothes, i need to make a trip to the salvation army. When I am bored I like to fuck around on my Ipod touch, watch pornos and read blogs. By the end of the day all I want is to be tired from hittin this Gym and learn me some math. In 10 years I want to have an apartment in a city, a well traveled life, and a wife (maybe). I guess you can say I'm that dude.
Now that I'm older my heart grows colder.
I was such a warm kid. I was so genuine. So genuine to the point where it could be construed as a weakness. I'd hold the door for people even if they were halfway down the block. I'd always almost automatically look for the best in people and in turn act like they deserve the nice things I do for em when in reality what the fuck did they do. They lived, that's all...
Moms came up to me complaining about how cold We've (me n my brother) have become, again lol. What am I supposes to do?! I am what I am and that's all that I am! I'm not an asshole for the most part, I'm just a but of a skeptic with people and their intentions and sometimes when it comes to annoying fam i just don't want to be bothered. When it comes to the my tude' about the general public I chalk it up to society and its ills . DTA= Dont Trust Anybody has been my motto since Stone Cold Steve Austin coined the term back in the WWF days. Living in cold as Brooklyn, NYC didnt help either, if everyone was saying goodmorning to passerbys (like they do here in NE Philly) we would never be able to get to where we were goin. Sometimes as a New Yawker a lil apathy about the people surrounding us aint at all commonplace. I just know i wasn't always like this thats for sure.
Lately tho i haven't been havin the best luck so to speak. I ain't get the job I wanted so I've been thinking and thinking... And thinking The ass job I have, the lack of a local social life, just the stagnation of life in general right now; maybe God is punishing me. It's terrible to say I think but is it beyond the realm of religious possibility??
I mean sometimes I'm expect the worse of people. Everyday some shit comes out in the news that makes me hate people in general. That shit with Derrion Albert made me SMH so fuckin much I got dizzy. Sometimes fam gets on my nerves so i give em the cold shoulder. I can be a sour dude sometimes but most people are sometimes. I expect the worse of folks and I don't treat my family as well as possible. I'm dismissive, apathetic and maybe karma is takin a bite out of my ass.
I guess what I'm sayin is mAybe I need to change....again. I could be so worse off, WE as a fam could be worse off. Jess' situation sorta kinda helped me realized it (im def not broadcasting that). My ultimate realization is that maybe I need to reconnect religiously, spiritually if you will. Now I'm not OK and realizing such a thing when I'm in a bit of distress is kinds weak. I feel like those folks who only pray or acknowledge God when something goes wrong and that is exactly the case as i read it back but I feel like I'd have more conviction then I do now. If life was a movie today I feel like I'd definitely be the villan. I don't blow buildings up or paint my face but inside I'm the total opposite of righteous. I cut corners, I cheat, I curse and I'm ruled by my vices not to mention my lack of self discipline or the ability to sacrifice. Although I love my libertine ways it's probably not the oughtright definitive way to live and I guess suffering for it. I gotta get ... Idunno imma go sleep this off too much delving for one nite
**Sleeps it offf**
I try to be good though but mortality catches up with me, Im only human. Imna pray more but only the strong survive out here and i can't get all gullible now i got to get to where i wanna go. Im still nice ima just cut down on the ill will a lil ... maybe ;-)
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