Helldate is off the chain lol, im not the datin kind of dude im a chill in, watch a dvd at the crib kind of guy... besides my last date ended up the same way.This white chick from Troy took me out n shit (yes gender role reversal is tight) but then again it was my birthday, we done went to the movies came back to my crib, popped in some of that Halloween on the DVD then we umm consumated. Ehh she wound up bein such a jealous ass bitch but yeah, my one hell date was when this one chick had the ovaries to ask me for jewelry lol major turn off.
Anyway, i saw this one video on youtube mad niggas in a party and they chillin but all of a sudden a couple of chicks start spouting out of the mouth. then what do you know: a full on riot went on like 6 to 8 niggas start fighting each other. Shit was crazy. You can find it under "Cheyney Rumble" in youtube. I'd embed it but i just dont want to.
Umm, i had this wierd ass dream about umm that person that i used to be with and we was togetha in that dream, the thing is i wasnt really happy about that fact. I saw me as unenthused and bored hopefully thats the last time that happens cuz i dont need that in my head while i sleep.
Finally got in touch with the person that knows me the most in this world. We got back up and shit. We unleashed all type of problems thats been goin on in our lives on each other, advice, talkin...all that, it was tite. I find out i dont need that type of support system like i used to. Growin up she was the only one there for me, anything i needed; the same for her from me. As written way below we aint speak in a year. The half the reason was unknown to me until last nite, and i wont get into it here. The other half of the reason was me being busy with my shit and my pride wouldnt let me call her. I was like if she aint finna talk to somebody then eff it.
I suck at keeping in touch with people and i come to terms with that a whiiile ago. for one reason or another i rather progress and know new people, even though that don't come as easy for me. Theres a nice handful of people i still talk to for a whiiile now but i wouldnt say we go as far as chill and hang out with each other, we just keep contact, and thats iite for me.
IIte im starting to get bored....
"The fact that i dont have a job right now sucks"
I dont want to be a bum ass nigga like the grown men in my life. When im down the road 10, 20 years in the future i want to be in a positive place, i dont wanna work no dead end shit job that has no meaning and no prestige. I want to be a provider for whatever family i hope to have and to be able to say im doin what im supposed to be doing. Moms told me about this one family friend who has like 8 baby mamas. Im thinkin what the fuck is wrong with this nigga. I mean he cool and all and i shouldnt knock his situation but damn. Shit happens in life and people makes mistakes but cmon b. Homie works in a less than desirable profession too, not much money ya dig, gettin handouts from his fam. I know family is there to help you out but i dont want help when im older. I want to stand on my own two like a man, even though most of the men i know havent. The choices ive made out of youthful apathy are wrackin my brain lately, i wonder if its too late to reverse it.
I dont know the situation about every other man out there, all i can do is do me and make sure I am headed where i want to be headed. 8 kids from 8 different mothers is crazy though, i luv sex but i cant let it drive me to do stupid shit like that. Alot of people dont have my smarts though. I could fuck everything that move but i fuck what moves me. Yeah i would fuck without rubbers but damn, the times are crazy and maybe sex requires rubbers in these times. To be a young papi is something that i am not trying to do at all right now. Yeah it could be done, "i will survive" and all that but im not trying to feel that responsibility rite now and that is (naturally) part of the reason why i never went raw on a chick (that and a crazy fear of my dick being useless through aids n shit). But yeah...went off tangent here, lookin like a "practice safe sex commercial"
but this is me, I'm a smart nigga, im tryin to mitigate the worst and not have a slew of dumb decisions fuck my shit up. Why they givin dog the bounty hunter another season, SMH...white people...anyway. Yeah
Im hungry so ima go to sleep while watchin tool academy
tribute to spike lee tommorow...
Damn the chicks on Ray J show are badddddd!
super sexy fo real! that chick with the tatt on her face...mhmm . i know what i said on my last post but i dont care, im a complex individual dammit. lol
Ehh ima be sore tomorrow.
i dont know what to say. i was thinkin in light of my status as a single nigga i could list qualities i like in a chick but i remember doing that already, so im not tryin to do that again....
im just gonna read my shit from the beginning
WAIT...
wait, wait, wait, wait...
Lemme put my five cents in on this 50 cent, Rick Ross beef thing.
Rick Ross is a dumb ass muhhfucka. Stupidness, i dont know the reason he went after 50 but i gauruantee that he will regret it. Rick put out a song (which i didnt listen to, cuz i dont check for ross like that). 50 put out a song. Rick then gives 50 an ultimatum that he has 48 hours to try again lol. So what does 50 do? He flies Ricks baby momma out from Florida to sit and talk to him about "Rawsss" in front of a camera. She basically outed him as a Corrections officer again and spilled the beans about all types of baby daddy, baby momma drama. This dude is resourceful as hell, i dont know how ross will bounce back from this. I hope he does though so that 50 can end his career, i wouldnt be mad if that dude disappears like Ja Rule and Fat Joe (thank god someone did something about Fat Joe).
Anyway, a job called me today and they wanted me to come in, BUT....because i dont have a car, i was disqualified. Immidiately i thought thats ass but im glad that i got at least a call. Thats officially a call or interview request per week since ive been looking for a job. Thats all i can ask for. Im not lookin to be a bum ass nigga, that isnt my intention at all. Im 23 years old and the fact that i dont have a job hurts like a muhhfucka.... let me end this and start a new blog
iite the Superbowl is up in less than two hours and although im in Pennsylvania i wanna see the Cardinals win.
One> cuz the Steelers beat my squad, The Ravens
Two> cuz i wanna see the underdog win, shit they whupped the panthers ass like they stole something..
I recentyl reached a life decision and decided to go into grad school for business administration. Money Is A Major Issue (MIAMI) nowadays and i dont wanna worry. I know its gonna be hard work for about 1 and 1/2 to two years but ima be better for it. Im finna go to Lasalle U.
Today im such a different person than i was yesterday (figuratively). The shit ive done in the past when it comes to apathy and makin wrong decisions is commin back today cuz im kickin myself for it today and its been a stressor. Gettin into such a program and gettin some good Gmat scores will help me undo the wrongs ive done in the past.
Although one should live in the present one shouldnt put himself in a bad position for the future.
There were times where i thought i wouldnt live past 2005 and there wer etimes where i just didnt give a fuck, i wanted self gratification then and i want self gratification now. if you asked me to define the term "self gratification" then and now you would get two different answers. One thing remains constant though, i wanna be happy.
yoo fo real chicks need to stop gettin too many huge tattooos on they body like they dying in a month n shit. This one chick on myspace looks like pinhea
d from that one scary movie...hol up lemme see if i can find a picture:
oh yeah dude is from Hellraiser: Pinhead ass nigga lol but yeah. Homegirl got a monroe on her lip. two cheeks pierced. like three tongue piercings. one inbetween her eyes (like on the bridge on her nose). and her ears is done also.
(thinks)
ahhhh fuck it b im just gonna post her pic on here.
Dont get me wrong she is OK, id beat and everything but that shit is too much. She got tattoos out her ass too at least iunno 8-9 tatts. I'm all for expression and freedom and all that fuck society shit but damn. at least hide your shits.
Speakin of tattoos i need one more. and i still need to color my current shit in. I need to get on that, shit i need to get a muhhfuckin JOB.
Im done here... yo i like critquing people ima have to go onto alltheparties.com n shit and start critiquing bitches, shit its only natural. I remember seeing this one chick with and 8 head. i was like daaaaaaamn. I copied and saved that shit too cuz it was a phenomenon. It wasnt as much a big forehead it was defenitely due to her loosing her hair on some balding shit. Homegirl was gonna be a skinny uncle phil. ahh well, we all have our faults im sure she's a nice girl. Shit happens in life that you cant explain, what can you do...
Oh yeah
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