"Ataraxia (ἀταραξία "tranquillity") is a Greek term used by Pyrrho and Epicurus for a lucid state, characterized by freedom from worry or any other preoccupation.
For the Epicureans, Ataraxia was synonymous with the only true happiness possible for a person. It signifies the state of robust tranquility that derives from eschewing faith in an afterlife, not fearing the gods because they are distant and unconcerned with us, avoiding politics and vexatious people, surrounding oneself with trustworthy and affectionate friends and, most importantly, being an affectionate, virtuous person, worthy of trust."
I think my ultimate goal now has a name.
all that sounds pretty good to me right now. I am a religous person thi like I believe in God but I don't believe in asking him for help like I appreciate all that (s)hes done, doing and will do but life is a sidewalk I have to walk and althouh it is by the grace of god I walk them sidewalks I choose to walk em alone.
Anyway back to Ataraxia I first heard of the idea in the movie Lucky Number Slevin. The protagonist attributed his lack of concern for his safety due to Ataraxia. It caught my interest from then on.
Now me I've practiced apathy before and it was insipid like everything was soo gray. I started to give a fuck about life a little and I've been happier ever since. But this is a different type of philosophy, a different mindset, one I would like to achieve it's not like I'm far away from it though but as of right now I'm sooooooo hungry for alotta things I gotta become preoccupied, I gotta worry just a lil but that's what makes this state so special.
It's being in love with yourself and where you are. Surrounding yaself with positive people and believing that you are worth everything. strangely It sounds like a "living peace" within yourself that usually only comes with death otherwise...
Hmmm, ive learned something new today! It all sounds good...except I dont really believe in afterlife.