COGNI.VOL...

Wow, Ive been writing for a minute now
I should have been writing more, especially during the semester. But school was slow, the blog wasn't missing much at all. I just put down the important things...My friends death, My former bitch of a boss (she became OK), the slowness of school, the ease/difficulty of my classes.

Speaking of classes. i probably got around a 3.3 - 3.4. im not sure since my french professor is slow with the grades. Strangely enough im not happy with it. Im not at all. Yeah i was shooting for a 4.0 but with six classes and my laziness i wouldnt think i would get anywhere close to what i got. I should be estatic. But im not, maybe its because im leaving I left Albany about a week ago. Everything that place has ever stood for has changed and im glad that i Left. Theres one thing though, my girlfriend still has two years left over there....

Oh yeah ive written about her too lol

Speaking about my babygirl, i miss her...

This is some violation of my natural tendencie to be private but fuck that. I miss her something awful...and although some part of me wants to not admit that to myself, to others and to her...another part of me wants to embrace it because there have been times where i wasnt in the position to miss anyone. Ive lusted after girls but that was just because i was horny and i missed the way they satisfied me. Home girl satisfies me in many ways including the one already listed. Its been a week without her and it sucks something awful. I know that if i look im gonna find someone to fill that void but im not ready to do that after a fuccin week. The fact that im even thinkin it says something though :-< .

Anyway

I know its xmas time but i dunno what to do. Im not enjoyin break at all. I got not people (broken record i know). Ohh well

THought

Alot of people think im asome sort of alchoholic!
Im mad ive never written about this before cuz the inclination is crazy. They say it in jest but got damn the jokes are gettin old. Im not hurt by it, cuz im not an actuall alchoholic. Folks see the pictures on facebook and myspace and they think i drink every week. I used to drink every week, shiet, sometimes every fuccin day. But in no way do i rely on the stuff. I drink to loosen up. PERCEPTION IS A CRAZY THING, its powerful as fuck and learning how to turn it against people is a great tool in everyday life.

Im gonna go play videogames....after all it is xmas time.

Fuck me

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