COGNI.VOL...

but should I, homegirl is a virgin...lol anyway i talk about girls on here too much. I need a new mind state.

All this procrastination is gettin me nowhere, I want to get ahead of my classes. Its the only way i can survive without killing myself, Some classes need to be taken care of so that i can have time to do what i can do. I keep givin too much to this Job and when i do have time to do shit im too tired. So i wind up talkin to Jayjay on the phone. jayjay is amazin, im mad i met her this late. Doesnt it always happen, you leaving somewhere then someone comes along which makes you soooo fukckin heated that u met them at that juncture cuz lol you about to leave in X months/days/weeks. She cute, funny as fuck and unvolatile. Makes me not wanna go to Philly cuz i barley see girls like her ova there. Everyone in Philly got something wrong with them haha, its cool though i dont plan on being there for long anyway. I went through my monologue this week, although i didnt kill it like i planned i went through it. Now i move on and try to do better next time. I stayed up all night on tuesday all hopped up on coffee. It was terrible i was getting the jitters, i felt my heart rate going up to crazy levels. It wasnt fun but i think i did ok on the test so hopefully it was worth it. I hate living in this house, there are zillions of flies everywhere in the bathroom and in the kitchen so i cant cook food cuz i dont want a side of flies with it. My roomate is a fuckin pig and hes gonna pay because i didnt sign a lease so if he or i dont find anyone to take over im just gonna fuckin leave. What does this dickhead do now? hes late with the electric bill, Im not paying the late fee, theres no fucking way im payin any late fee. This dude knows hes the only one with the keys to the mailbox and he aint on top of that shit.

(damn how long have has it been since i typed the above)


OCT 24th...editing
Anyway im starting to like the girl again so hopefully i break her seal lol. We went shopping yesterday and it was tight. Walkin and talkin n shit she looks good in white. I had on all black so it was tight.


lol when am i gonna post this anyway?...:-) cheesing, lets just say im liking this chick alot rite now. I'm not disclosing what we did but i like her more for it. Anyway, Jayjay is prolly out the picture, she said she wanted to be friends, didnt want to lead me on,lol. Im not mad at all im just mad that im eventually leaving Shak here. WC still has the fattest ass though but i'm diggin Shak alot tho, we gonn see where this goes