ahhh shit
I'm beginning to understand my ways when it comes to my social interaction with the fairer sex. When I'm feeling someone, i'm feeling em but when I am turned off or i can't see myself with them anymore i douse our bridge in kerosene and i light a match. In one fell swoop a couple of paragraphs i can damage a relationship (in the general social sense of the word) to a point where it cannot be repaired. I just go into fuck it mode and say things or do things that blow it all the fuck up. As I grow I've been doing this more and more, especially if any hope is lost. I'm starting to feel that this is the case right now. Someone is feeling themselves too much and has demonstrated that they have a history of getting dudes to feel a certain way just to play them in the end. She stays telling me about it. Oh homie does this but i deaded him, fella does that and he loves me (big lol after the sentance) and not to mention the EX thing ....jeeze. Besides the long distance thing defenitely isn't my flow so why not go all pyro.
After that I was like "damn if I was exclusive to her at that certain point in time (last semester of school) I would be kicking myself in tha ass right now." So today again she mentions the nigga, as she goes on i cut her off and say imna watch the game [tosses match into the gasoline drenched bridge], she got all upset and said it was rude but damn im not trying to be like them other suckers in ya life and im damn sure not trying to be hearing about ya ex for the umpteemth day in a row...
I do this
I do this to cut losses
I do this to prove that no one isnt expendable and to demonstrate my strength, so much people are guilty of keeping the wrong people in their lives on borrowed time, fucking up their lives even more so I'm treatin it like a band-aid rip that shit right off...
Time waits for no one, while ones mind is wrapped around the wrong person, you could be missing out on someone else...
and I hate missing out
Relationships are never a threat cuz i'll erase the history and act like we've never met.
- Joe Budden
is this one worth keeping though?? Maybe....we'll see
I dont have to rebuild a bridge the same way it was before...it just gotta be there...right????
They say gods in the building nah.....DonDons in the building
UUUUUGGGHHH
-chix are so fuckin wierd. I feel like im still learning their pathology. The blogs help but everyone is different and some behaviors i just do not understand. Well i do understand them but I don't get why these behaviors are on display so blantantly ...you know i'm right here right! I'm defenitely about to go our bridge with some kerosene and a torch lighter cuz I'm officially turned the ufck off.
- fuck me i gotta take the GRE's again, and i can't take em again for like another month so ...there goes fall semester. Why can't i do anything right the first time. Whatever, I don't lose twice.
- I wish to be someone when i grow up (more). I shoulda went into radiology. I was at careerbuilder [yess at 2am in the morning] and some lucky radiologist with at least one year of experience will get paid 230K to 300K per year. I wish ... you know what fuck wishing...it won't do me anygood.
- Mo betta blues is the shit! brooklyn brownstones god i want to live in one lol. There's nothing like em.
- I think my dog may be a shizhu mix or and akita mix. he has the wierd curly tail and his eyes are chinky lol... if such a characterization applies to dogs.
- Speaking of burning bridges About the homegirl i had a dream about. I finally reached out to her. Although we weren't together for long we went through some shit and I have make her trust me again apparently. Apparently she forgot that she was part of the reason why we ended up the way we did. [fuckin lifestyles, almost fucked my life style up]. I'm not gonna charles hamilton her so ima leave it at that.
- MMA fighting is the shit. I was into it when I was a youngin but the new game that came out made me a fan again. Wanderlei Silva is that nigga. Hopefully he whoops ass this june 13th. I wonder if i can be a Mixed Martial Arts fighter. I haven't fought anyone in a minute. I do feel like fuckin some people up though. Who knows where life takes you but then again I'm in philadelphia so looks like I'm staying put.
Phuck Philly
yess im still on that
Exile:
Mainstream hip-hop at the moment has one face. One face is easier to sell than many. People are lazy and settle for what’s thrown in there face. Most people will just eat McDonalds instead of searching for that perfect restaurant. Same for music these days, people settle for what the radio says is hot because its safe and easy. But this gives creative hip hoppers a chance to thrive, since the majority ain’t doin nuthin new……I see change but the peaceful revolution cant happen without unity, and more people are becoming aware of this.
Do u hear that???
Soul Amazin got damn....ear candy
